我不是那么看电视连续剧及影片的人，我跟中国姑娘聊天发现他们对于演员之类的知道的比我多，她们看过的比我多得多，有一位甚至看过Gossip Girl，这个我看了应该不到10集就不看了，但其中的Blair Waldorf给我留下了一定的印象。回国之后，我也没看多少电视或电影，忙么，当时基于刘慈欣的科幻小说的《流浪地球》当时在中国很火，本来想周末看看，但也没顾得上。
ChinaSuperpower将第一代大陆移民形容为大多有精神病(mentally ill)或道德有问题(ethically challenged)，我之前觉得他这么说过激了，现在却觉得这种说法基本是对的。他特别强调八十年代后，中国已经相当稳定了，那些移民的在中国也算过的不错的，不像之前的一些移民，是逃避战争，饥荒或严重的经济危机，他们是有理由的。他也提到好多第一代移民的家庭在解放前也是城市人，对土地改革或文革依然怀有抱怨态度。我的感觉是这些人他们能力不差，但是就是比较过于自我中心并缺乏眼光。他们在中国已经过的不错了，甚至特别好了，但是还是把自己的个人利益放在国家前面。他们觉得白人更富裕，更好，所以要让他们的孩子接触白人，在白人文化环境长大。他们在美国也不团结，面对白人是跪舔态度，互相之间经常是小人的勾心斗角和攀比。所以说他们是ethically challenged是绝对正确的。他们这样成不了大事，就像当年的地主那样永远是帝国主义的傀儡，他们也建设不了现代化的国家。
First of all, 端午节安康！In English, it’s called the Dragon Boat Festival I believe. The holiday originates from the folk hero, statesman, and poet 屈原 (Qu Yuan) from 战国 (before the Qin Dynasty) drowning himself into a river out of patriotic passion. The people in order to prevent the fishes from eating his flesh threw 粽子 into the river. I don’t know all that much about the history and culture behind the holiday. It’s my first time in China during it since age 6. I am reminded of how when in 河南郑州 where I visited 轩辕故里 I actually managed to impress a few people by reciting the first few lines of Qu Yuan’s 《离骚》
I saw and heard in the background some study pertaining to 端午节 on TV. I also saw on 新闻联播 (and video recorded part of it on my Huawei phone, if you’re interested in seeing that, contact me) Xi Jinping’s visiting St. Petersburg with Putin. There was Xi in Russia on 新闻联播 yesterday as well.
It occurred to me to write more on this blog after I become too tired to watch 红楼梦 (I’m on the third episode now, https://v.qq.com/x/cover/c2xpl7t4eppkq7n/t00148f3yrh.html), which actually takes some mental exertion, more so than writing what I’m writing right now. I am actually reading parts of the original version as well, the ones I find more interesting, and it’s easier since I have the TV series to match with. For translating the 文言文 that I can’t understand on my own, I’m using some English translation e-book of it I had downloaded while I was still in America. This is kind of weird yes. Reminds me of how since my English isn’t all that great with literary stuff (despite being in America since age 6), when I finally read Pride and Prejudice (back in 2015 I believe), it actually occurred to me to find online a Chinese translation of it, which according to my vague memory actually helped me clear up confusion on a few parts. This using English translations to help me understand literary Chinese, it’s not the first time for me. I had done the same for 鲁迅’s 阿Q正传, with an English translation of it on marxists.org.
Something that’s pleased me much lately is that I for the first time am taking serious action to systematically correct my atrocious posture and consequent “bodily deformations,” and there are visible results already after not long. I was quite physically awkward as a kid. I was certainly not looks conscious. That certainly wasn’t good for my self-esteem growing up. I thought I was just naturally bad. Growing up Asian in (white) America made it even worse. But now that I am older and more understanding, I recognize well that this stuff can be corrected without much difficulty so long as I train systematically with some professional guidance/physical input. I had a rather lame and pathetic experience growing up in America, with some bad memories associated for sure. They haunt me still from time to time, but overall, I am quite “forward-looking.”
In English, the word propaganda is obviously rather pejorative. That need not any explanation. Some people might even disparage my blog as “Chinese communist propaganda.” If they do, so be it.
A native Chinese female who I talk with a fair bit now, sometimes about film, asked me if I’ve seen Anna and the King. My answer to that was that I had never even heard of it. I skimmed through the plot on Baidu Baike to get a gist of it.
She seems to know a fair bit about popular culture, and the gossip that goes along with it. Relatedly, she seems to have seen a fair bit of film, including the TV series Gossip Girl. I had watched maybe like the first 10 episodes of that. I was probably more motivated to do so for the attractive girls in it than for the plot, though surely the plot was certainly not bad. I sure got a good taste of “upper class white privilege” from that. I even joked to a math PhD student I was talking with a fair bit at that time, who said he had watched the whole thing, that I need to become filthy rich eventually so that my daughter can become like Blair Waldorf.
I had told her that I watched the historic Nazi anti-Semitic film Jud Süß largely out of curiosity. I think almost certainly, had I revealed that to my typical America raised peer or friend then, I would have been ostracized to some degree. Even many Chinese in America who did up through high school or undergrad in China would have at the very least viewed me funny or with some backlash.
The best I could find of it on YouTube is
with French subtitles. (To someone who really wants to watch it with English subs, then you better find some way to obtain it yourself.)
Out of curiosity, I had also watched, in my last year of college I believe, the North Korean film, The Flower Girl.
I actually told my mom about that, and the result was her raging at me, saying that if I mentioned this to the outside world, people would think I’m mentally insane, which I’m obviously not. At that time, maybe I actually took that a bit more seriously, but now, it’s like, “it’s just a movie, and the propaganda aspect of it is too obvious to miss, so what,” not to mention that hundreds of millions of people in China also watched it in the 70s, so I’m far from alone. I don’t remember how I found out about it.
Similarly, I watched around the same time 英雄儿女 (Heroic Sons and Daughters).
It was produced in 1964 and became a classic film in China. I certainly found the whole plot quite moving when I watched it. A song in it 英雄赞歌 (A Paean of a Hero)
became widely known and sung too and still is up to this day I believe.
I did not actually tell my mom about my watching that, but I told that native Chinese female about my watching that along with The Flower Girl and my mom’s reaction to my having watched the latter.
Her response was, having slightly misunderstood
what’s wrong with your mom, 英雄儿女, it was on cctv6 yesterday.
I also told her that I had watched Saving Private Ryan, which could also be regarded as propaganda of a different nature, and sigh, its director was the anti- China Jew Steven Spielberg.
Also I am reminded that I have an ABC friend without a Chinese name. I had asked him what his Chinese name was and he said he didn’t have one. But when he told me that his birthday was October 1st, I joked to him, “[姓]国庆”, which means “[his surname] national day.” He has some interesting views that I liked to laugh at.
Once when he visited me, I made some jokes using the Chinese name I had given him, and we watched this 1952 film 南征北战 the plot of which was on some battle in the civil war 4 years earlier.
We didn’t finish it since he had to leave.
I began listening to Soviet music my final year of college. A female Chinese international student from Harbin in casual chat with me told me about the song Katyusha (and also that How the Steel Was Tempered book that I had already heard about) and I found it so beautiful that I wanted to understand its lyrics in the original, authentic Russian. That was what got me learning Russian on my own, much by accident. I had a Russian friend who helped a bit and was quite supportive of it.
I was a bit anxious though since I was still very much trapped by the norms of America, especially its school system. I was afraid that people would find out and think that I was crazy or brainwashed. (Some Indian-American had said to me a summer earlier, “you seem brainwashed by the Chinese government!” notwithstanding that at that time, I was still in school and consuming and creating verbal content mostly if not almost exclusively in English and still thinking in more of an “American” mindset.) But it was more of a real start at spiritual liberation. Now, I could care so much less about what all those idiots in America think. I’m not the one who’s mentally crazy. It’s America and American culture that’s mentally sick, and becoming ever more so.
As I’ve indicated, the political reaction of many if not most in China would be quite the opposite. For instance, when I wrote about my experience growing up in America, some female jokingly commented in Chinese,
Comrade, you are a modern version of 18 Years in the Enemy Camp!
I was somewhat confused when I saw it. But after looking up online, I learned that it was referring to some TV series on some CPC agent who spent 18 years within the KMT, between 1927 and 1945.
I eventually decided to actually watch it, not just listen to the theme song, and it was entertaining enough for me to have finished almost all the 40 episodes. Contrary to the negative Hollywood portrayals of Asian men, the protagonist was a charismatic, competent, and heroic alpha male who easily attracted and seduced women, even a woman high up within the KMT who he managed to manipulate again and again to help achieve his objectives without her knowing who he really was. When she finally found out, she had to keep it a secret too not only out of love but also to avoid being implicated.
Though I read stuff on the Chinese internet starting from high school, it was really only a year ago that I began to comment, write, and meet people through that. Pertaining to this, some America raised guy at elite school asked me how I managed to meet all these people from China or in China. I don’t remember how I answered, but on this, I will remark that surely, what I’ve done is something that most ethnic Chinese who grew up in America would not even dare think of doing, due to immersion in American culture and social pressures and what not, let alone actually doing. But I guess that’s just my personality. Not being terribly conformist and doing certain things that most people would be afraid to. Can’t really help with that. Somewhat tangentially, I’ve written to a math PhD student from China too that my interest in pure math surely had something to do with my difficulty fitting in culturally in the American school system.
Finally, my sympathies to those stuck in America who feel similarly but feel at dis-ease about it. When I say this I have in mind not just ethnic Chinese who grew up in America but also the unusually woke white American who can more or less actually understand where I’m coming from, who thinks that the people running the country are basically delusional, witnessing directly there a big theatre of political idiocy. If that’s you, you are not alone.
Yesterday I talked more with that Chinese Chinese girl about the topic that I would have a hard time talking about in America, the one on looks, sex culture, sexuality, film, that kind of thing. I had written on here that I find Anglo women rather low on the attractiveness scale here. German/Nordic women are higher and so are Slavic women, and I’ve told her and someone else about that as well. She thinks that the experience growing up in America for East Asians is quite sexually repressive, though she grew up in China, and also on the relative absence of Asian-Americans in media.
I did grow up in America as an EA male, and I’ll give a few remarks on that. It is generally rather awkward to talk about women and sex related topics as an EA male in the white dominated American environment. If you do, chances are people will look at you funny. The media and overall environment, after all, characterizes EA males as sexually null nerds. I was certainly quite nerdy (more in the negative way, like incredibly socially awkward) up through college. I did study math and CS after all, and I didn’t have much of a “social life,” not that I really cared too much about that. I really could care less about all the white people dating culture in America, it’s generally pretty trashy and not much point in getting directly involved in that, at least for me.
However, I have seen all those model advertisements (mostly of whites since it’s America) and I have had my thoughts on that, which I mostly kept to myself. I know about the film and fashion industry being widely seen as “racist” and “classist” and all about white privilege, and I don’t feel much need to comment on that more. If you want to know more about what I think there, you can go read https://gmachine1729.com/2019/05/07/why-native-chinese-girls-are-1000x-better/.
But it did occur to me to start a compilation of model/actress videos, categorized by ethnicity. If you want to see it, click the link below.
There was also another native Chinese girl telling me about her disgust with the plot of some Disney movie which she described as centered on some white man’s love affair with a Native-American princess (after all the men were killed). She said she never actually watched it, and it might have been well-made, but the plot itself was sufficiently disgusting.
I now chat with at least two (native Chinese girls), one of whom is a mother of two, a fair bit. Unlike with females I encounter in America, I can talk with them pretty honestly and openly about race, sex, culture, etc. I was just talking with one of them, and I thought it’s worthwhile to record some of what we said. There’s quite a lot, so expect what you see here to be far from inclusive.
I told her about ChinaSuperpower, in particular his thesis that the Anglo elite/mainstream is out for genocide against East Asians. They do it quite aggressively through the media and Hollywood, and trust me, I’ve seen enough racist Hollywood movies, with the one coming to mind during our discussion The Interview, which was on assassinating Kim Jong-Un and involved subverting some sex object like North Korean girl towards that.
I said that if the Anglo elites could, they totally would commit genocide against East Asians, and Russians/Slavics too. Obviously, blacks, Muslims, and Indians are not liked in the Anglo world, but the Anglo elites don’t really seriously care about them as much because they are no real threat to Anglo hegemony, more of an annoyance. On the other hand, you have a lot of big, tall, macho, highly competent Russian men with a base in a country still extremely powerful despite the calamity following the disintegration of the USSR, in which they lost like 10% of their population. I’ve heard that in the UK, those guys, who take many of the STEM jobs, trigger a lot of insecurity in the Brits. As for the Chinese, this need not really be explained, just look at the recent Huawei incident for example.