游了游泳

昨天去附近的一个健身房和游泳馆看了看,跟我谈的那个人就说能看出我的身体状态不太好,体型有点变形,尤其肩膀太往前,有点驼背,其实这个问题我早就知道,几年前也有健身教练跟我说过,可以一忙就顾不上这个,只会问题加重,因为我知道我的姿势经常是挺糟糕的。这个跟我做码农有关,但也跟我自己这方面自然就差有关。当然,那人由于想让我在他们那儿花钱,肯定也把问题夸张了。

我上次进游泳池是半年前,也没游太多。我游的也很一般,游的自由泳肯定有姿势技巧不良的地方,蛙泳腿的动作基本肯定也算错的,可是游是绝对没问题的,并游了两个小时,中间的停顿休息也相当少。

我记得五岁时上了游泳课,班里有不到十个人吧,包括一个当时十岁以上的邻居。记得有一个教练把我推进了两米多深的水里,我自己当时看到了深度高于两米,想以此为借口,但依然教练说了个没事儿,然后也确实没事儿。最后一天,有了那儿的所有游泳班级的“展示”或“表演”,我在的当然是最初级的班,然后我所展示的却是勉强并扶了几次墙游到底。我妈妈对我的这些表现当然是相当生气。

在美国上小学三年级,有一位女生过生日请了班里所有人去游泳,记得那次一进水怎么扒拉扒拉都会不得不沉下去,最终不得不戴上救生衣游,感到好尴尬啊。不过,之后那个夏天我却学到了游起来没问题的地步。

记得在美国长大时有个华裔孩子通过我们父母互相之间是朋友认识,他一直搞游泳比赛,小学初中时成绩好像不错。可是他爸长得较矮,低于一米七吧,他也偏矮,我妈觉得他游泳最终很难有啥希望。说的没错。高中时,有一位比我小两年级的华裔也在游泳队,他好像还比出些名堂来,进了什么junior nationals,我问了他我之前熟悉的那个人如何,他却说他算游的比较慢的,这毫无疑问跟他的个子。但那个人依然算比较athletic,之后也练出了不少肌肉。衡量一个人是否athletic其实更多看人的整体身材素质,个子偏矮只会影响某些身体不够大物理上不得不限制竞争力的运动,如游泳,如篮球,如田径的某些项目。这让我想起,普京也很矮,才一米六五,但他毫无疑问是个比较athletic的alpha男,我看过他带领一帮俄罗斯青年人滑雪的视频,也知道他即打过老虎,又驾驶过战斗机。当然,更关键的是他的领导地位与他的形象加姿态的混合。斯大林好像更矮,腿还有点残疾,但他更给人一种alpha男的形象,更令西方白人畏惧。在俄语里,钢铁用英文字母念为stal,所以Stalin恰好被称为“钢铁男人”(человек из стали),与他的形象和作为特别符合。钢铁象征着工业化,而且是在他的领导下,苏联实现了即快速又高含量的工业化。

美国有些人特别爱说什么alpha男,beta男,并亚裔男在他们眼中大多是身材小,nerdy,顺从性的beta男,中国人倒没有什么太类似的,当然也可以说潜意识也有。这让我想到那个徐物理教授在他博客上还会偶尔炫耀他的体育成绩,很可能为了表示自己与典型的美国亚裔beta男恰恰相反。可是alpha还是beta不光是看身材和体育,也看性格和整体形象,也看种族。比如,在美国Jeremy Lin依然被犹太人金钱控制的NBA和媒体所歧视,这跟他是个美国华裔很有关系,因为在美国,在英语文化里,黄种人本质上不可能成为真正的alpha男。相反,姚明和易建联有中国背后的支持。在中国,由于是香蕉人加上台湾背景和公开的基督教信仰,Jeremy Lin也没有那么受欢迎。徐的能力,成就,和对自己的展示能让他在美国有较高的地位,显得相对比较alpha,但他依然受到取决于他的种族的局限。在中国,媒体可以很容易把他打成与美帝国主义合作的买办亡国奴,彻底毁掉他在中国人眼中的形象。所以一个男人alpha还是beta不光看客观能力和个人性格和姿态,很关键是背后的宏观媒体势力所塑造的标准。

所以一个人要当alpha男不一定需要体育好或身材大,更重要的人所在的环境如何看待他,他与环境的关系。简而言之,有能力很重要,但进入配合并支持自己的背景和能力的环境可以说更有决定性。当一个真正的alpha男必须自己非长自然就被人视为alpha,如果需要勉强,如果氛围默认要求你证明自己,那就不是真正的alpha男。而且一个真正的alpha男,若标准高一些,必须具有一种影响并推动主流氛围的角色。如果主导媒体主导文化的人与你本质对立,那你当真正的alpha男是绝对不可能的。一个需要求别人接受的人也绝对不可能当alpha男,最终被接受了本质上还是个beta男。换一个角度考虑,真正的alpha男的alpha作为和气魄牛到他的短板,他的失误被视为无关,甚至被赞扬为使他alpha个性更加神奇的特点。

什么是alpha的,什么是beta的经常是非常主观的。人无论多么理性都有自己的品味,自己的主观看法。可见影响人们的主观感觉的势力是多么具有决定性的。

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名字歧视

昨天有一位中国人问我在美国是否应该用英文名,而非美国人较难念的写以拼音的中文名,我说还是用英文名吧。姓呢,没法改,至少很难改,但是这让我想到,如果想在美国混,港台的非拼音中国姓比大陆的拼音中国姓还是有明显差异。毫无疑问,拼音发明是为了帮助大陆人提高识字率,不是为了让西方人容易念,因为很明显,拼音是非常不符合英文的phonetic(表示语音)规律的。西方人只要不是那种特别无知,看名字就能看出来是大陆还是港台,然后有个港台非拼音中国姓在西方人眼里毫无疑问是一种相对加分,不光是更容易念,还是更“自由”的阵营。所以把个什么Cai改成Tsai对于在美国混是绝对有利的,那人跟我说却看到过大陆背景的人为了融入美国还真的这么做过。说起这一点,我想到了做到微软直接报告给CEO的Harry Heung-Yeung Shum(沈向阳),我妈妈还认为他是新加坡人,我说不是,是大陆人,但是因为好像在香港读了硕士,才能把自己伪装成香港人,若就给别人看个“Harry Shum”,有人都会以为他是白人,这和原来在同一个级别的而离职的Qi Lu恰恰不同。

说起这个,我自然想到我跟一位俄罗斯的俄罗斯人通过他的mail.ru邮箱有过交流,我倒是想找个我在美国的俄罗斯朋友,让他用个mail.ru的邮箱投个简历试试,看能得到什么样的反应。

说起这些高等非PRC华人,记得有一次和几个人谈美国的成功华人人士,如Kai-fu Lee,如Steve Hsu,都有特别明显非PRC的中国姓,两人也都和美国中央情报局有过联系。和我谈话的一位的反应是,“问题是,一旦Lee和Hsu这样的人需要为了自己的事业或者他们香蕉孩子在美国的未来而争取,他们是会毫无犹豫的伤害我们”。这个观察也毫无疑问是非常政治敏锐的,我当时都没太那么想。不光是这些非PRC华人,就是第一代大陆移民,尤其是在美国养出香蕉人的那种,很多也会这么做的。这些人对中国更多是一种政治负担。与以前相比,中国顶尖人才多得多了,现在不那么缺了,那些有美国利益冲突关系的专业水平再强,经常从政治角度考虑也是不划算的。这个后果或许残酷难以接受,但是也可以怪他们要不鼠目寸光,就是过于自私自利或未培养好自己的孩子,并必为此自食其果。种族和国家的分界线是不可能完全跨越的。

More WMAF

Uber IPOed lately. I saw that Kalanick’s girlfriend is this Angie You, so another WMAF. And Alan Eustace this SVP at Google who joined in early 2000s or maybe even 1999 has some Eustace-Kwan Foundation. There was also that Sergei Brin-Amanda Rosenberg affair, and Rosenberg is the product of some Jewish-Chinese relationship in Hong Kong.

I once looked up the VPs at Facebook and the ones of Chinese descent were mostly if not almost all female. Starts from the top with Mark Zuckerberg and Priscilla Chan.

As for Google, I vaguely recalling reading that Eric Schmidt also once dated some Vietnamese concert pianist or something like that.

Not to mention I’m also reminded of that Amy Chua who is married some Jewish law professor at Yale. Her tiger mother book certainly didn’t help with positive publicity of Chinese in America.

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Why native Chinese girls are 1000x better

I now chat with at least two (native Chinese girls), one of whom is a mother of two, a fair bit. Unlike with females I encounter in America, I can talk with them pretty honestly and openly about race, sex, culture, etc. I was just talking with one of them, and I thought it’s worthwhile to record some of what we said. There’s quite a lot, so expect what you see here to be far from inclusive.

I told her about ChinaSuperpower, in particular his thesis that the Anglo elite/mainstream is out for genocide against East Asians. They do it quite aggressively through the media and Hollywood, and trust me, I’ve seen enough racist Hollywood movies, with the one coming to mind during our discussion The Interview, which was on assassinating Kim Jong-Un and involved subverting some sex object like North Korean girl towards that.

I said that if the Anglo elites could, they totally would commit genocide against East Asians, and Russians/Slavics too. Obviously, blacks, Muslims, and Indians are not liked in the Anglo world, but the Anglo elites don’t really seriously care about them as much because they are no real threat to Anglo hegemony, more of an annoyance. On the other hand, you have a lot of big, tall, macho, highly competent Russian men with a base in a country still extremely powerful despite the calamity following the disintegration of the USSR, in which they lost like 10% of their population. I’ve heard that in the UK, those guys, who take many of the STEM jobs, trigger a lot of insecurity in the Brits. As for the Chinese, this need not really be explained, just look at the recent Huawei incident for example.

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May Day in China

In China, people have May 1st thru May 4th off. Because of that, I am meeting some people and also taking some time to wind down. There is also that May 4th 2019 is the 100th anniversary of that May 4th Movement back in 1919 which was crucial towards the founding of communist party, etc, and we are seeing some stuff on TV with Xi Jinping and other high up party people in relation to that.

I won’t go much into the background of that, not that I know too much about it. Basically, it was a protest out of the decision in the Versailles Treaty to hand over the colonies in Shandong (Qingdao in particular) relinquished by Germany to Japan instead. I’m not all that clear as to what happened in the end, I believe China was able to win back those places but with some heavy price. The movement was crucial towards the beginning of “Marxism” in China with people like 李大钊, 蔡元培, etc.

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一些关于所谓sexual racism(性感种族主义)的想法

刚才把下面的照片发给了一位女生,问她对这美女如何评价。

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她的评价我就不说了,没有那么高。我就说说我自己的评价吧。可能还是过于受美国媒体文化的影响,一看就觉得是典型的身材好,金发碧眼的来自有钱背景的白人美女。毫无疑问,她显得非常白,这种女人在美国是根本不会搭理我的。记得有一次,在个小博物馆里快要关门了,碰到了一个白人姑娘跟我差不多大吧,不是金发的,颜值仅仅可以,我就试试跟她聊了,一开始好像找了“理由”主动跟她说几句,比如“这博物馆什么时候关门”,或者“你觉得这博物馆的美术如何”,之后我问了她他是做什么的,“她说她在华盛顿DC一个美术的non-profit工作”,我也跟她说了我是做软件开发的。没多久,她对我的态度就是一种“alright bye”。

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Steve Hsu(徐道辉)

以前挺崇拜这个人的,现在评价对他越来越低了。他能力的确很强,而且很全面,能拿到美国不错或至少还可以的大学的理论物理终身教职,同样还创办了网络安全公司以26百万被收购,能够破竹子天花板当上大学高层行政人员,而且体育也强,中学搞了游泳比赛,大学打了橄榄球,后来还搞柔道,这种混合才华是少见的。对,他还研究智商和基因的关系,最近为此创办了公司,在这方面在美国也颇有影响力。然后他的博客每个月有十万多点击。可是呢,他没有一项做到最好或接近最好,理论物理,大陆过来的比他强的至少好几个,张首晟强得多了。硅谷创业一个26百万的收购也真的不算啥。体育他离专业水平就更远了。

我最近得知他开创的那家公司还把一个翻墙的工具在01年的时候部署到了中国,为此他拿了CIA的钱,并且得到了纽约时报及其他美国主流媒体的宣传。

我跟一位体制内背景的人说了他,那个人也对徐产生了兴趣,可是对他评价也不是特别高。总而言之,觉得徐有政治能力但是是那种符合美国已形成的体制和文化谋取成功的政治能力,做的更多一种模型美国亚裔,很优秀但是还是服从体系的,为了自己的事业发展不敢对其作出任何挑战。反而,这人觉得我的政治能力从某种角度更强,比如我的博客写的东西有点含量,不像徐那些只不过是引用别的文章或视频自己也就做点小评论。我的反应是徐的做法的确是那种比较现实主义的,没什么错或不好,挑战权威反而经常才是愚蠢的破坏自己事业的做法 Continue reading “Steve Hsu(徐道辉)”

Revisiting quotes of ChinaSuperpower after some time in China

I’ve been busy busy busy quite exhausted but weekend gives me a chance to wind down a bit. So I went over the VPN to read again some quotes of ChinaSuperpower on Reddit.

I’m from a technical background but unlike many especially from the Chinese diaspora STEM community in US, I’m not exactly entirely apolitical and I do not try to pretend that national and racial boundaries can be traversed unlike many an idiotic Western or Westernized liberal. Segregation per race is natural for humans and miscegenation, hybrid vigor notwithstanding, I see as for the most part quite corrosive if not socially and culturally destructive. As the Chinese saying goes, 人以群分物以类聚. I was and still is a quantitative nerd and used to hang out with mostly those types naturally but many of them are just 书呆子 with pretty low political awareness and then again naturally I don’t want to be exposed too much towards that aspect of them. Like, I will respect a high IQ banana for his technical prowess but I will disdain him somewhat socially and treat him with some degree of suspicion.

On the other hand, ChinaSuperpower is a lawyer as he has written on Reddit. He doesn’t care all that much about pure technical ability and puts the political side before the professional side. He doesn’t want to hear more about cases of highly successful Chinese STEM diaspora and he has a very high standard when it comes to ethnic/tribal affiliation. Being a lawyer he’s obviously had to deal with much more cutthroat behavior than people in technical fields. A political big fish in the latter is merely average in the former so the standard is very different.

I’ll say that with direct exposure and experience I can better understand where he’s coming from with his words.

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微信转发给我的文章“美国是天堂吗?一个资产过亿中国人移民美国6年后的自白!“

是一位中国理论物理学家转发给我的,他在美国也做过交流。读了此文,我基本完全认同他的说法,尤其是美国意识形态教育可怕的那一点。

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I’ll further comment that having been in it from first grade through university the American school environment seems very effective at culturally cleansing those of Chinese descent as was done to that person’s kid despite his having done up to sixth grade in China. It is indeed 非常可怕, and again I did what I could resist the cleansing.

Seeing his shock on how just 2 or 3 years of brainwash in America managed to override a preceding 12 years of it in China, evidence of futility of Chinese education, I have a few thoughts on the matter. One, his kid is somewhat on the extreme end there; of course it didn’t help that he was put in schools full of rich white kids. Two, this has become a problem in China too, an invasion of toxic American liberal ideology. Banning Google and Facebook, and now also Reddit and Quora, is not enough. On how to solve this, I have a proposal, a rather unrealistic one at this point in time: change the de facto foreign language in China from English to Russian, China already had experience with that in the 50s and time has showed that Russian culture is more compatible with Chinese culture than the Anglo one. If China is going to secede from the world by walling off Jewish controlled Anglo media, it should do so full force, not half-heartedly.

美国是天堂吗?一个资产过亿中国人移民美国6年后的自白!

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中国本地人如何看待美国长大的华人

ArmorUSA老是跟我说我在中国由于我在美国长大会受到一些歧视和排斥,比我想象的会严重得多。但是,他个人还是有经历的,在北京工作过。有人知乎上私信给我,表示对我的支持,我就向ArmorUSA说

我可以跟他说你觉得ABC在中国很不受欢迎吗,即使是会中文的,爱国的,【某美国最顶尖大学】有高等学位的。

他的回应却是

The last point is irrelevant. What matters is 会中文 and 爱国的.

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