如何东京之旅改变了我对朝鲜的看法

周三在新闻联播上看了二十多分钟朝鲜对习近平访问的疯狂隆重的欢迎及迎接。在机场放国歌不用说了,街上占满了为习近平欢呼的人,还有不少人站在房子的凉台上或开着窗给习近平欢呼摇手。同样,他们还在一个大体育场举行了演出,唱了些如《我的祖国》,《社会主义好》之类的歌。对这个有的人会觉得朝鲜人被洗脑到过分愚民激进了,看着都想笑,我当时也有点那样的感觉。我也想到如何朝鲜被西方国家孤立,所以习或普京一访问他们,可真是一件对他们的大
事,这也是完全可以理解的。我当时也想到中国对习访朝那么注重也是跟中美关系今年恶化离不开的。

没过几天,我就去了东京,到那儿看到它基本是个美国城市,只不过人改成日本人,语言改成日语而已。楼的风格,路的风格,停车场的风格,和整个宏观的感觉跟在纽约或西雅图的没啥两样,它的地铁也让我想象到了纽约的地铁和旧金山的地铁,只不过好一些,尤其与旧金山的BART相比,而且他的设计我感觉有点丑并过于复杂,入地铁的口又非常窄。我住的宾馆也基本跟美国的一样,里面的

让我觉得自己回到美国了,区别只有这儿是个东亚美国殖民地,表面是东亚城市,是实际上是个没有灵魂的东亚版的美国。

感觉在日本看到的美国人更多,比较日本是美国的附庸,所以在美国人心里自然更接近并比较舒服,这与在敌对阵营的PRC恰恰相反。感觉也听说日本的人默认把白人视为更高等的人,毕竟他们试图挑战美国但结果为被美国占领,同样之后它经济再厉害,因为地缘政治上受制于美国,潜力还是有限。可能日本很多地方比美国好,但美国还是它的主人,就像很多员工可能能力才学比老板强,但还是老板的下属并由于背景或性格原因基本永远给别人干活,用他们的能力服务别人。

晚上在宾馆无事可做,我看了看朝鲜阅兵,听了听朝鲜的红色及军事音乐,那些歌曲如《没有你就没有祖国》真的是艺术质量极高,给人一种坚贞不屈团结一心热血沸腾的感觉,上次听是五年前,但依然耳熟能详,并对其更有所欣赏。在去年18年的阅兵在楼台上有常委栗战书站在金正恩旁边,还有他通过翻译与金对话的镜头,也有一些非洲和阿拉伯国家领导人也站在台子得到了镜头。对这个,你可以说是朝鲜为了展示他们所有的国际支持,也可以说不少被美帝国主义欺压的第三世界小国的领导都以朝鲜为榜样,因为朝鲜与伊拉克和利比亚不同是生存者,他们的领导和人民却在艰难危险的情况下成功的保卫了自己,熬过了难过,当然朝鲜也如伊拉克利比亚不同,他们还有个中国为了自己的利益不得不保卫他们,不过还是能力更强,尽管更小,但核武器还是搞出来了,连伊朗至今还都没达到那个地步。

有人将日本战后的经济科技发展及重建为奇迹,其实没那么奇迹,他们有了美国的浓厚支援,加上二战时已经是先进国家了,不像中国当时基本还是个农业国家。朝鲜九十年代失去了来自苏联和俄罗斯的经济支援,导致了严重的经济危机物质匮乏和饥荒,可是那没有使得他们国家垮台,熬过去之后一旦发展出核武器,却在世界舞台更有影响力了。现在中俄相对强大了加上中俄与美国冲突加深只会导致朝鲜经济形势好转。我想平壤现在可能就相当于九十年代的北京,没有东京表面的富裕,但是它肯定比东京更富有活力和灵魂,哪一天有机会我可以去亲眼体验一下。无论如何,朝鲜人民二十多年一直在物质条件和国际形势极其不利于他们的情况下不服输,灵活的挑战美国和日本而保卫他们的国家和民族独立,这是非常惊人并令人佩服的。毫无疑问,他们比战后日本远远更奇迹,日本只不过是为了经济发展和由于美国占领不得不出卖自己的灵魂,而且本身就更大并起点更高,如果朝鲜掌握如日本那么多的资源,那它可就可怕的不得了了。

韩国我就不多提了,表面富裕的国家,可是也是个可悲自欺欺人被奴化的国家,其政权和不少人民是无耻的美国狗。只不过我在首尔时没有如东京那么明显感到它是美国殖民亚洲城市,或许很多是由于朝鲜和中国还是真正让它屈服过,不像日本本土纯粹是美国二战拿下的,其他国家从来没有摸过。

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得知了53年拍的《伟大的土地改革》

非美国网站的链接为https://www.bilibili.com/video/av6742454/

我怎么知道该电影的?因为翻了翻我的中国红歌的页,看到了《唱支山歌给党听》的那首,就记得其作曲家朱践耳比较有名,五十年代还在苏联学了作曲。然后翻了翻朱践耳的百度百科得知《翻身的日子》那首也是他写的,那首歌我怎么得知的?是在美国时在油管上看了殷承宗演奏它的视频。

同时,也得知《翻身的日子》竟然是53年拍的《伟大的土地改革》的插曲,然后该电影看了十多分钟吧。

我对土地改革具体不了解,对农业也是一无所知,反正我知道当时有贫农,中农,富农,地主。当然,地主也分小地主,大地主,没那么坏的地主,和残忍剥削并与蒋匪军和美帝国主义密切合作的地主。我也想到了我的一个大学同学,他就是彻底的香蕉人,也跟我说了他们家恨共产党因为曾经有多少多少钱。他也跟我说他父亲八十年代就去了美国,在一个一般般的学校读了数学博士,那人还特别要面子,还说因为当时美国读研对中国国际生很有限制,所以他父亲只进了一个一般的学校,尽管从中国名校毕业了。那个人啊,的确相当或很聪明,但总的而言给我感觉不好,就是一个一般的老老实实顺从学习的彻底被美国洗脑的香蕉人,在我眼中他的品味也一般,他的长相和整个说话的口气和方式也不给我什么好的感觉,就是如ChinaSuperpower所描述的,又一个几乎被阉割的顺从的好好学习的ABC,没啥想法,没啥眼光,没啥大气,其实这种ABC是美国最欢迎的,如果又知道了他的家庭背景,那只会更为这样。

反正从那个记录片,我能看出控制媒体是什么样的效果,一旦共产党控制了媒体,就能大量宣传这样的内容和立场。相反,美国的被犹太人控制的媒体就呵呵了,感觉真正挑战它,讽刺它的美国长大的华裔,目前我知道的唯一的人就是我自己。你看,那么多华人在美国就知道老老实实埋头苦干,我对一位第一代技术移民提到了犹太问题,他还对此具有容忍的态度。我一抱怨常春藤的总统和上层行政人员一半儿都是犹太人,他却以对此接受的口气说了个,“我觉可能比那个还多吧”。

我也想到如果美国很多是个诱惑,在硅谷当工程师的确能挣至少美国十万多,经常二十万多,甚至五十万多美金的收入,这我也都享受过,还算不错吧,一开始觉得很不错,后来就不觉得怎么样了。负面言来,它也很容易变成一个温水煮青蛙的过程。为了能够升上去,你得从某种角度有一种跪舔白人,印度人和犹太人的态度,然后慢慢,你的心灵被打乱了,你成了美帝国主义合作者了,如果在那儿生了孩子,那有孩子没有国家没有身份永远被美国奴役的危险。钱也只是一方面,还有地位的一面,美国华人虽然挣钱多些,但地位是相当低的。好多华人去了美国,一旦享受到了一些钱的诱惑,就永远没完了,虽然自己已经不缺钱,但成了它的奴隶,为了更多会做一些可被形容为“出卖自己灵魂”的事情,尤其一旦他们试图为他们的孩子在美国赢得好的未来。可以说他们这样是混得很成功,也可以说他们心里软弱,道德沦丧,无法抵挡美国的诱惑。

ChinaSuperpower将第一代大陆移民形容为大多有精神病(mentally ill)或道德有问题(ethically challenged),我之前觉得他这么说过激了,现在却觉得这种说法基本是对的。他特别强调八十年代后,中国已经相当稳定了,那些移民的在中国也算过的不错的,不像之前的一些移民,是逃避战争,饥荒或严重的经济危机,他们是有理由的。他也提到好多第一代移民的家庭在解放前也是城市人,对土地改革或文革依然怀有抱怨态度。我的感觉是这些人他们能力不差,但是就是比较过于自我中心并缺乏眼光。他们在中国已经过的不错了,甚至特别好了,但是还是把自己的个人利益放在国家前面。他们觉得白人更富裕,更好,所以要让他们的孩子接触白人,在白人文化环境长大。他们在美国也不团结,面对白人是跪舔态度,互相之间经常是小人的勾心斗角和攀比。所以说他们是ethically challenged是绝对正确的。他们这样成不了大事,就像当年的地主那样永远是帝国主义的傀儡,他们也建设不了现代化的国家。

Some thoughts on Chinese-Americans in relation to elite high school academic contests

Last night I was too tired to watch more of 红楼梦. I’ve now finished 4 episodes out of 50 (started a bit on the 5th one as well), which corresponds to the 9th chapter out of 120. But it wasn’t quite time for me to easily fall asleep. So it occurred to me to look up the winners of USA Math Olympiad for 2019.

https://www.maa.org/sites/default/files/pdf/usamo/2019%20USAMO%20Winners.pdf

https://www.maa.org/sites/default/files/pdf/usamo/2019%20USAMO%20Honorable%20Mentions.pdf

There they are. And then it occurred to me to look at https://aapt.org/physicsteam/2019/team.cfm and http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=finalists19.

I couldn’t help but notice how Chinese the names were. Of the 12 USAMO winners + 7 USAMO HMs, there were 15 Chinese, 1 Korean, and 3 whites/Jews.

Of the 20 USA Physics Olympiad finalists, there were 16 Chinese, 3 Indians, 1 Jew, and of the 20 USA Computing Olympiad finalists, there were 20 Chinese, 4 whites/Jews, and 1 Indian.

And as an FYI, I know people who have been each of these three categories, in years much closer to mine, and I am familiar with what these contests are like and their content. I’ll say that the physics olympiad is the closest to actual physics. The math one is a bunch of difficult olympiad style problems some with rather “brute force” or at least not terribly elegant or mathematically substantial solutions in the inequalities and synthetic geometry categories, and the computing one is a bunch of algorithmic problems requiring some cleverness in terms of dynamic programming, greedy, graph algorithms, even a bit of computational geometry.

Then years ago, there weren’t actually this many ethnic Chinese in the names of the winners of finalists of these contests. These are mostly the kids of 70 后 (born in 1970s) STEM immigrants from mainland China who have been selected for a combination of g, conscientiousness, interest in STEM, and (shudders) also lack of patriotism/woke-ness. Most of these kids are basically uber high IQ, nerdy banana-boys, really into these contests, winning academic awards, and learning math and science. My experience has told me that very few of these kids are anything close to culturally Chinese, and I don’t expect this to have changed.

I know it’s rather politically incorrect or at least awkward in America to comment on the ethnic factor of this contest, in particular the gross Chinese overrepresentation. I’m sure many find it very annoying but are too afraid to say it openly.

Speaking of annoying, this very annoying Jew in math kept telling me about how Chinese-Americans are a high powered, how they’re smarter than the native Chinese at the far tail. That *might* be true. The best native Chinese kids of the same age might have some difficulty beating those Chinese-American kids in those finalists lists in those contests, the last few years, US has done better than China at IMO I believe. But the native Chinese have their own advantages, like heck, they actually have their own language, own culture, own country, own government, own media, own military, and in the career world, I would expect them to do better since they will have much more political support.

There is also that people I know have said that these contests select not only for far tail g but also for not very high aesthetic discernment, because those with really high aesthetic discernment would lack motivation to prep too much for the more contrived aspects of these contests. I rather agree with that point of view.

I’ve interacted substantially with people in that category. They are certainly very smart and very fast and accurate and powerful at doing stuff, solving problems. But I find many of them lacking in awareness of cultural/historical context. When I learned math and science, I found myself more naturally interested in the history and development of it than most others. So even though I interacted with those kids to a fair degree, I also kept a bit of distance from them. I now find native Chinese many nowhere near as smart IQ wise more interesting and pleasant to talk to than them. At least subconsciously, I found many of them rather misguided in many ways. For more context, I’ll reference this quote of ChinaSuperpower on Reddit.

Chinese in China don’t do any of these things you mentioned. Confucianism was abandoned by 1960s. Only AA parents use Confucianism as a tool to keep their kids docile. Chinese in China are too busy building a massive blue water navy to challenge USN and take leadership. AA sometimes have no idea what modern China is about. Chairman Mao’s army annihilated US army in Korea and that’s why USA hates him LOL. Chairman Mao then proceeded to explode multimegaton hydrogen bombs in the 1960s that ultimately led Nixon to bow down and recognize PRC as a UN security council P5. Chinese today are patriotic and even low class people have sex and get married no problems.

Meanwhile it is first generation Asian emigrants who are white worshipping. They brainwash their children to erase any chance their children might figure out how powerful China is. Their agenda is to make their daughters white mans sex toys and their sons the coolies. This is the child sacrifice they are making to please the white man who is their God deep in their hearts. It’s the deal with the devil that first generation emigrants don’t what you to know about. They just want to keep you docile with math, physics, piano and Confucianism.

AAs should take their heads out of their math and physics books and read about Chairman Mao and modern China. China is the defender of against Western hegemony. It’s a red pill though. Once you know the truth you know you are just a child sacrifice to white Gods by white worshipping first generation emigrants. Your choice whether to live in ignorance or accept reality.

So, yesterday, I had lunch with a guy who did high school in China, undergrad at top or near top US school, and was a PhD student at Harvard for a while. I asked him about Beijing vs Shanghai. He said that he doesn’t actually feel much difference. I mentioned how Beijing as the capital is more state owned enterprise while Shanghai with its colonial past is more international and foreign-invested enterprise. In particular, I spoke of how someone I know whose parents are 体制内 had said to me that in Shanghai you shouldn’t tell people that you’re from a 体制内 background. That guy replied that he didn’t really feel that way, that many people in Shanghai want to go into 体制内 as well. Then I mentioned stereotypes of Shanghainese being really snobbish and looking down on people from smaller places, with reference to someone’s saying that Hong Kongers and Shanghainese are very snobbish. That guy’s response was very interesting. It was

Do you know which group of people I find especially snobbish? Chinese-Americans.

And I was like LOL, yes they are more snobbish than Shanghainese for sure, and in a much more ridiculous/pathetic way.

He qualified to those who immigrated to America in the 80s and 90s. After all, he had some interactions with them while a student there. I said that some of the best of them were really successful in academia, professors at Princeton, Stanford, etc. He was like, “yes, but some of them are pretty nasty people,” with a few names of such people he’s had direct exposure to. I spoke of the negative qualities which characterize many among that cohort based on my observation, such as really wanting to be individually good and being afraid that others from the same group surpass them, and lacking in 骨气 and risk-taking spirit for the collective good, and just being very small-minded in general. I spoke of how this guy who did reach the top in academia in America who’s returned to China now for over a decade was an exception, how he openly challenged this super dirty anti-China dissident in the 90s, before he had tenure. The response was that there are exceptions, and that that guy, unlike most, actually returned to China eventually, giving up his rare, coveted position in the US.

I mentioned that ChinaSuperpower also thinks that way of those first generation immigrants, in a more extreme way than you do. He was like, “he’s not the only one who thinks that, many people do.” Of course, the ones who did actually become high up in a company or professor at good or great university are the very small minority. The outcomes of most of those first generation immigrants were pretty meh, with some even a bit depressing. Not to mention their kids…

Yes, most of the kids in those math, physics, and computing olympiad finalists lists will do fine or even really well later on. Even the really well must be qualified with a they won’t get any serious money or political power though. But they are the very small minority. On the other hand, the typical kid of first generation immigrant from mainland China is up for a rather sad outcome. I’ve seen plenty of such…

Some scattered thoughts on 端午节 (Dragon Boat Festival)

First of all, 端午节安康!In English, it’s called the Dragon Boat Festival I believe. The holiday originates from the folk hero, statesman, and poet 屈原 (Qu Yuan) from 战国 (before the Qin Dynasty) drowning himself into a river out of patriotic passion. The people in order to prevent the fishes from eating his flesh threw 粽子 into the river. I don’t know all that much about the history and culture behind the holiday. It’s my first time in China during it since age 6. I am reminded of how when in 河南郑州 where I visited 轩辕故里 I actually managed to impress a few people by reciting the first few lines of Qu Yuan’s 《离骚》

帝高阳之苗裔兮,朕皇考曰伯庸。

I saw and heard in the background some study pertaining to 端午节 on TV. I also saw on 新闻联播 (and video recorded part of it on my Huawei phone, if you’re interested in seeing that, contact me) Xi Jinping’s visiting St. Petersburg with Putin. There was Xi in Russia on 新闻联播 yesterday as well.

It occurred to me to write more on this blog after I become too tired to watch 红楼梦 (I’m on the third episode now, https://v.qq.com/x/cover/c2xpl7t4eppkq7n/t00148f3yrh.html), which actually takes some mental exertion, more so than writing what I’m writing right now. I am actually reading parts of the original version as well, the ones I find more interesting, and it’s easier since I have the TV series to match with. For translating the 文言文 that I can’t understand on my own, I’m using some English translation e-book of it I had downloaded while I was still in America. This is kind of weird yes. Reminds me of how since my English isn’t all that great with literary stuff (despite being in America since age 6), when I finally read Pride and Prejudice (back in 2015 I believe), it actually occurred to me to find online a Chinese translation of it, which according to my vague memory actually helped me clear up confusion on a few parts. This using English translations to help me understand literary Chinese, it’s not the first time for me. I had done the same for 鲁迅’s 阿Q正传, with an English translation of it on marxists.org.

Something that’s pleased me much lately is that I for the first time am taking serious action to systematically correct my atrocious posture and consequent “bodily deformations,” and there are visible results already after not long. I was quite physically awkward as a kid. I was certainly not looks conscious. That certainly wasn’t good for my self-esteem growing up. I thought I was just naturally bad. Growing up Asian in (white) America made it even worse. But now that I am older and more understanding, I recognize well that this stuff can be corrected without much difficulty so long as I train systematically with some professional guidance/physical input. I had a rather lame and pathetic experience growing up in America, with some bad memories associated for sure. They haunt me still from time to time, but overall, I am quite “forward-looking.”

Fundraiser for translation to Russian of Grover Furr’s book on Katyn Massacre

Dear friends:

Here, for your own information, is the web page, with which the Tver’
people wish to raise enough money to pay for the translation of my Katyn
book into Russian.

https://planeta.ru/campaigns/furr

Here’s the book. It was published in July, 2018:

The Mystery of the Katyn Massacre. The Evidence, The Solution

http://www.erythrospress.com/store/grover-furr-katyn.html

https://www.amazon.com/dp/0692134255/

In this book I investigate the Katyn massacres in the manner of a
detective who approaches the case with complete objectivity, wishing
only to solve the crime and identify the guilty party.

I would have been content to conclude that the Soviets had shot the
Poles. Instead, I found that ALL the valid evidence points to German guilt!

This conclusion is taboo, of course. When it comes to attacking the
Soviet Union during the period of Joseph Stalin’s leadership, no calumny
is too outrageous.

Vladimir Bobrov, my wonderful Moscow-based colleague and a dedicated
historian, has informed me that he has obtained an oral  promise from a
major Moscow publisher to publish this book, IF they are presented with
the translation.

Please forward this email of mine to any and all Russian friends or
colleagues you may have. Perhaps they would like to contribute? If not,
they may be interested to learn of this project.

Yours for the truth!

Grover Furr

2019-06-06 上午10.38.262019-06-06 上午10.39.13

The link is https://planeta.ru/campaigns/furr and there is a Union Jack at the bottom to change language to English. I tried with both American and Chinese credit cards (they were all Visa) but they could not get accept on that Russian e-payment/finance platform. They also supported like Yandex Money and a bunch of other Russian “fin-tech” products, none of which I have and none of which I actually care enough to register for. Looks like Russia might be ahead of America now in mobile/e-payments as well.

I really wanted to donate but haven’t been able to. But readers of this are surely welcome to, with instructions below.

Dear friends:

Some of you have asked me how you can make a contribution to the fund
for translating my Katyn book into Russian.

There are two ways you can do this:

*First way: Using a credit card, on the web page:*

1. Go to this web page:

https://planeta.ru/campaigns/furr/donate

2. Click on the link at the very bottom of this page that says: “Switch
to English version.” There is a small Union Jack (flag of the U.K.)
beside these words.

3. Only the first box, labelled “No reward” and “100 ₽” (the sign for
Russian rubles) is translated. The others remain in Russian. But you can
click on any of them too.

1000 ₽ (Rubles) is about US$15. If you want to contribute, say, 2000
Rubles, you will have to use the 1000 Rubles box twice.

4. Complete your credit card information on the next page.

Voilà – you’re done!

I did it, as a test, and got confirmation from both the crowdfunding
software (planeta.ru) and from Mr. Maxim Kormushkin, who is organizing
the fund.

*Second way: If you do NOT want to use a credit card.*

Send a check to me at the address below. Mark your check “Crowdfund” (so
I’ll know you are not buying one of my books).

I will wait until I get a number of checks, and then make a collective
deposit.

If you contribute more than 2000 Rubles (= about US$30), I will mail you
a copy of my book. In English! IF you ask me for it!

Here is the address to mail me a check:

Grover Furr
English Department
Montclair State University
1 Normal Avenue
Montclair NJ 07043
USA

Russian is the most important language that this book should be
available in. So thank you for all your support!

Sincerely,

Grover Furr

By the way, I don’t really actually care about the Katyn Massacre and I know very little about this controversial matter. I just know that it was murder of some Polish officers (in 1939 I believe) in Katyn. Stalin’s NKVD led by Beria I believe was blamed for that. I believe the Soviets denied it under Gorbachev. Furr’s thesis is that it was actually done by the Nazis, which really is quite plausible.

Why do I like Grover Furr? Well, he seems like a serious honest scholar. He knows Russian well. Not sure Robert Conquest does, and Furr said that most of the references in Robert Conquest’s Black Book of Communism were bogus. Apparently, the book had gotten so much acclaim, and nobody actually really pointed out that the references were kind of fake after actually looking them up. Basically, pure Cold War propaganda. I’d totally believe it. There is some Victims of Communism Memorial in DC where they say there were 100 million victims of communism. It’s China 65 million, USSR 20 million, then Cuba, North Korea, Romania, Vietnam, etc for the remaining 15 million. Like that, is basically bullshit.

Grover Furr also visited at least twice the Chinese Academy of Social Sciences in Beijing to give talks on matters pertaining to his work Khrushchev Lied so more reason for me to take him seriously. He even said something like, “Stalin didn’t commit a single crime.” He’s obviously exaggerating there. He blamed the Great Purge on then NKVD head Yezhov, claiming Yezhov was a secret Nazi agent. This stuff it’s really basically impossible to know for sure by now. The people directly involved are all dead, and even they only know for sure a portion of what happened. Something I am well aware of is that Stalin is just one person. He has people under him doing stuff. Like, his cult of personality was manufactured by his underlings managing a bunch of people doing actual the work. It’s difficult to actually be able to fully reign in on those people. Surely, they are afraid, but they have some power too, and many of them might have been secretly opposed to much of Stalin, as Khrushchev almost certainly was.

Russians who read this are welcome to contact me. Maybe one of you can donate on my behalf, I’ll pay you back in US dollars or RMB, or maybe by ordering something for you that you want.

RT’s Michele Greenstein

I get usually around 20 views per day on https://gmachine1729.com/lists/rt-videos-involving-michele-greenstein/. There have been a total of 3,452 views on that this year as of today, 2019/6/5, averaging over 20 views per day. But today, I saw that I’ve gotten 63 already, after not much more than half of it. So it occurred to me to update it. The last time I did was late in April.

2019-06-05 下午9.14.16

I’m doing this by manually searching on YouTube and copy pasting one by one.

2019-06-05 下午9.01.46

In my first go, I found the videos of her the past month kind of sparse. I tweaked the filter and ordering parameters a bit (changing from past year to past month or something like that) and found that a few were actually omitted. Could YouTube be screwing with RT too?

I had read some media report of Eric Schmidt publicly saying that they’re down-ranking RT and Sputnik in their search engine. Interestingly, one of the latest videos of Michele Greenstein on RT was

To be fair, Google is still quite a common way of finding this site/blog. I wonder how long that will last though…

Those of you who’ve viewed that page who are reading this, you’re very welcome to comment! Even better if someone can help me get connected with Michele Greenstein and RT!

Harvard girl

My QQ Browser home page content recommendation engine gave me some news about this “Harvard girl,” who created some sensation around 1999 in China for her admission to Harvard. Her mom ended up writing and publishing some book on that that sold well.

That news article mentioned that that girl, despite her saying that she would return to 报效祖国 (contribute to the mother country), she ended staying in America and getting US citizenship. Maybe perhaps likely she also married a white guy. There was a photo of her with a white guy in it.

As for the comments, there were maybe over a thousand. The ones with the most upvotes were mostly negative from what I remember. Of course, it’s statistically speaking quite hard for Chinese to immigrate to America. For most Chinese, it’s basically a dream. I was very fortunate in that my family actually got the green card relatively quickly and smoothly, without engaging in anything that could be truly regarded as the spineless behavior that you see in many Chinese in America, though of course, in that regard, you can always do better, but that of course, depends much on your ability. Basically, there’s no guarantee that you’ll be able to stay and if you aren’t and have to return to China, you will feel like a failure, and likely your prospects back in China won’t be all that great either. To the majority of native Chinese, the attitude towards the emigrants and the emigrants-in-trial (those without the green card) is one of a combination of envy and contempt, or actually, maybe more like apathy since those people are so far removed from the majority of the Chinese population. Some native Chinese guy when I mentioned the term “banana-man” was even like, “what is that?” I guess back in the late 90s, it was much more of envy, but now it’s much more of contempt. To be fair, my attitude towards those smart but not that smart Chinese-American kids who are foreign to the Chinese language and culture is mostly one of contempt. I don’t really care much about alienating them because they don’t have any power and pretty much never will. If they really were actually really genuinely smart, they wouldn’t be that way. Even if that person has elite academic credentials, that person’s IQ can still be somewhat questioned, or more so, that person’s (and parents’) taste and judgment.

I asked this mother under age 40 in China if she knew of that Harvard girl, and she said yes. She mostly thought that that girl wasn’t terribly exceptional in talent or ability, and that at the time, information on how to get into Harvard in China was very limited, and rumor has it that some recommendation letter from this American helped. She was certainly quite lucky, but at the same time, her level of career success in America, so it seems, pretty much matches her talents. There was not all that much she could bring to China anyway.

In contrast, that mother mentioned this girl from a small place who really was exceptional at English, winning first place again and again in some competition in English public speaking in Britain. She got into Fudan with gaokao waived but because she didn’t like the major she got into that much, she entered the English department at Nanjing University. Now she’s 40 and a prominent TV news anchor in English. I asked her to send me a video and indeed her English really was exceptional. (Mine is too, but that’s another matter, and I also grew up in America so it’s not a fair comparison. It’s also not fair to compare my Chinese to those who grew up in China.) In contrast, that social climbing slut Zhang Zetian who married JD’s founder/CEO Richard Liu, her English was really meh, despite there being “Zhang Zetian English” as a search recommendation on Baidu. I believe her father who was quite rich (not ridiculously so though) had people manufacturing her image behind the scenes. I was told that her father wanted her to marry a “third generation red,” the ones who are the true elite in China as opposed to billionaires from the grassroots like Richard Liu. Rumor has it that she dated one and got dumped.

What that mother told me that really cracked me up was

当年铺天盖地都是她的新闻,她妈妈很极端的,书里写,为了训练意志力让她手握冰块,结果好多脑残家长跟着学

Translated to English, it is

During that time, there was news of her everywhere. Her mother was really extreme. In her book, she wrote that to train her persistence, she had her grab ice blocks with her bare hands, and as a result, many braindead parents followed suit.

Like this is just absolutely fucking ridiculous. No more comment.

By the way, I also back in 2015-6 helped this Harvard girl (ethnic Chinese but not culturally Chinese at all) who won science prizes in high school prepare for coding/algorithm interviews. (I didn’t do it for free earned a little side money from that as well. I was mostly interested in meeting her at that time.) I was surprised at the gross inconsistency between her high school achievements and how little she knew about computer science as well as how slow she was to learn. Like, she kept on asking me what the difference was between a linked list and a cache. There is this interview question of simulating an LRU cache in software. I had told her that there are hardware caches as well with orders of magnitude lower latency than reading than from memory, and that really, disk -> memory -> L2 cache -> L1 cache -> register is basically a cache hierarchy. Really, caching is quite intuitively obvious. It’s like how in the home you have a small bucket for trash that you only empty to the bigger one outside when it gets full. She also couldn’t understand why quick-select was average case O(n) and worst case O(n^2). I explained to her that pivot operation (in quick-sort it’s the same) but she just couldn’t get it. I then told her that nobody in the fucking software or machine learning world would give a fuck about quick-select, but her reaction was one of

NOOOOOOO!!!!!! QUICKSELECT!!!!!!

What really brought me into disbelief was when she asked me for some homework problem how to compute \int_0^{2\pi} \cos^2 x dx and I was like “you must be trolling.” The method I instantly thought of was using the nothing esoteric trig identity 2\cos^2 x - 1 = \cos (2x). It’s an obvious 1/2 \cdot 2\pi since the \cos (2x) component is vanished by the integral by symmetry.

There is of course also noticing that by symmetry \int_0^{2\pi} \cos^2 x dx = \int_0^{2\pi} \sin^2 x dx. Sum the two to get 2\pi \cdot 1 and divide by two.

I think I also told her that one can substitute \cos x with \frac{e^{ix}+e^{-ix}}{2}, square that and integrate. Anyone who’s studied Fourier series should instantly tell that we only care about the constant coefficient, which is an obvious 2 \cdot \frac{1}{4}.

I spoke of this case to a former Harvard PhD student from China and he was like,

Maybe she’ll eventually become director of research at Google. And write a book like Lean In.

Only then, did I learn that Lean In was some book written by Jewish Facebook exec Sheryl Sandberg who also went to Harvard. Her husband was also an exec, and my reaction to that case was basically one of

How the fuck do you die running on a treadmill. That guy must have been unusually clumsy or had some serious health problems to begin with.

开始读(其实更是看连续剧)红楼梦了

不知为何,想起可以趁着还有时间好好利用读读红楼梦了,我想这对于了解中国更传统的文化会很有帮助的。其实,在美国时,接近两年前的时候,我就试了读红楼梦了,但基本是大失败,实在是太难太长了,而且他的文化背景对我也太陌生了。读过的也基本全忘了,留在脑子里的基本只有很少一点如什么“纨绔膏粱”,“簪缨世族”,跟我们现在生活和语言毫无关系的当时的贵族和文人用的语言。当时的我还对文言文有点兴趣,至少因为我从某种角度在内心里还有傲慢学术精英主义者的一面,觉得如果不知道点文言文,有些中国人会不把我当人看,就如我不把彻底美国化的美国华裔当人看。(注:刚才这话有为了幽默效应而夸张,莫以直译视之,我其实是个相对平易近人的人。)

现在在中国待了半年以上,红楼梦可以再尝试一下。尽然《敌营十八年》四十集的连续剧我都基本全看完了,那五十集的内容文化背景对我远远更陌生的五十集的红楼梦连续剧也是可以慢慢吃的,多久能吃完,难说。若看迷了,可能几个月,甚至就一两个月,也可能痴迷于工作和其他事情,没时间和精力把它放到边上,得两三年。至少现在我可以很欣慰的说我以完成了其百分之二。

我在似懂非懂地看视频的同时,也会在网上读读关于红楼梦的剧情,人物,和相关背景,也创建了在我这网站上一个红楼梦语录页,目前只有来自第一回最开始那部分的语录,这些我都会找到(或理解后自己编也行)其译文,为了我的(和我网站访问者的)学习和未来的参考。我倒是想过找或者买个红楼梦的删节版本读,后来也觉得算了吧,可以看连续剧,也可以读网上关于剧情的内容,归根结底,剧情的概括可不就是个超级删节版么。

网上的原本太长太难则考虑找删节版却把我引到了我爷爷留下的书架。我记得我爷爷特别爱收集东西,尤其是录像,印象非常深刻的是我小时候他家里收集了不少录像,而且内容非常之广,从动画片到纪录片到新闻,其整理分类排序也都做得相当完美,当时九十年代用的还是卡带。

他留下的那书架,其内容让我感到“很有意思”。书前面摆了不少各种各样用石头做的漂亮的东西(不知道这个中文该如何更简洁的形容)做为一种修饰,书很多都是一些跟共产党相关的,至少那些最容易引起注意,也有四大名著,包括红楼梦,只不过那原本红楼梦我网上也能看到。这可能在中国没那么奇怪,但对于在美国长大的我,反应自然会是一种笑。里面包括什么毛选,还有邓小平,周恩来,陈云,等的文集,也有翻译到中文的一些列宁的著作。也堆了不少红色小册子,拿了最上面的看了看,标题却是“中国共产党第九次全国代表大会”,那好像是69年的。

可以说我也以新型的互联网平台做了点类似,我为了自己和别人方便找,也为了troll一下笑一笑,收集了在这上面一些苏联红歌中国红歌的视频,回国后,一旦得知一个新的艺术水平不错的,如白雪唱的《永恒的军礼》,可能也会将其插入到列表里。

有点晚了,就不再写了。红楼梦打算慢慢地看。可以通过它感受一下中国科举封建制度下的贵族文化。

1983年北京市的面票

觉得挺有意思的。怎么找到的?是在处理些家事儿时,如换灯泡之类的,在抽屉里翻出来的。

六零后人跟我说粮食当时只能用粮票买,用人民币都不卖给你,粮票和肉票需要拿着户口本去领,每个人好像一个月半斤肉,粮票肉票一直用到八十年代底。

我问

那运动员不可能吃那么点肉吧,游泳的,田径的,打篮球的,以身材肌肉为竞争力的。

得到的回答是

他们不一样,他们在体校,有特殊的政策。

这让我想起读过一个英文版的关于姚明的书,里面好像说当时上海体育官员在他和王治郅俩专业篮球队员父母的孩子还没有出生时就已经为他们做了准备了。如果我没记错,那里也写了由于某体育官员对姚的母亲的文革毛左活动有仇,姚明却失去了一些他应当得到的优越的营养,不过尽管如此,他比预期长的还高,表现的比预期还好,不知是真是假。好像那本书也提到了上海体育官员有一次到他们家拜访时给了姚明家一些粮票,将此形容为中国当时正在改革的计划经济制度的象征之一。

一看到粮票,我也就更能理解为什么当时那么多人把美国视为天堂并对中国的制度更加质疑了,物质条件上的确是天壤之别。反过来,尽管有粮票,中国依然八十年代却出了那个破过当时世界纪录的跳高疯子朱建华,他好像也是上海的,也许或很可能如果他出生在农村而非上海,他就不会被发现而得到适当的专业运动员的培养,也就没有他了。这让我想到如何那本姚明书也说了姚明的祖父是上海最高的人之一,可是五十年代被发现时就已经二十多了,来不及培养了。