I’m on the airplane in China right now with nothing to do so I write this. The person next to me is watching an American movie with Chinese subtitles. Having been in China for almost a month, seeing that screen feels foreign to me, there are mostly some white people and a few black ones too. On that I shall say that my mental state has much changed being surrounded by people like myself for no more than 30 days. In America my only access to the culture and environment of what is to be my natural habitat was indirectly and very imperfectly through Chinese in America as well as the Chinese Internet. But that is nothing like actually being in China surrounded by Chinese people and their way of life in cities built in their own style. After just this little bit of time, much has changed as for my mental defaults, perhaps most prominently that now a pretty woman is instinctively East Asian as opposed to white. The power of advertising, the power of propaganda. I had been exposed to propaganda all my life in America nonstop and now I’m China I experience one in the reverse direction, with crudely speaking a cancellation effect underway.
Almost instinctively I no longer care or fear anything near as much what whites think. This is actually natural for almost everyone in China. They have no direct contact with white people or with people of any other race really. White people are pretty much invisible in their lives excepting an occasional model advertisement in public and appearance on some world news on TV. This is in stark contrast to in America where communication is so stilted in comparison because there are a zillion races which the multicultural environment naturally conditions one to fear pissing off either intentionally or by accident. One reason why I’m not optimistic about America. Sure America can attract smart people from all over the world. But there is also that given how people of one race already have enough difficulty getting along, how much of a problem it becomes when there are many races of vastly different cultures and inherently competing interests sharing the same space. Maybe that is much a reason why now China’s airports render the ones in America shabby in comparison. Even in a second tier city the magnificence of the airport instantly made an impression on me. Of course America is still more advanced and of higher innovative substance in core science and technology but even there the advantage is dwindling.
I increasingly view my experience growing up in America as an ethnic Chinese as an abnormal one essentially forced upon me. It’s human biological nature for races to self segregate, this is instinctive and it’s really modernity that has made possible people like me. Biologically and culturally, whites and East Asian are far far apart. It’s nothing like the difference between Han Chinese and the Mongols or that between the English and French. And so it’s also natural that the Chinese in America are perpetual foreigners who die out in a few generations with high outmarriage and low birth rates. It’s like a pollutant entering water that eventually becomes absorbed in, no longer visible to the naked eye. Of course there has been a continuous stream of it entering to replenish but mostly uniformly there is quite a low half-life.
I am the rare type of pollutant who opts to leave that system for self preservation. Yet owing to my having entered and stayed in formative years I continue to with my fluent and still prolific English writing infect readers and minds within. I am in some sense a product of American liberalism. It was the invasion of toxic American liberal ideas into my native land in the 80s and 90s along with some slots opened for entrance into the land of its gospel that attracted people like my mother and many other Chinese of that generation. Most of their offspring were absorbed and tamed under the new system, yet I resisted and am now in some sense retreating and launching some sort of counterattack. What was it of this gospel that so repelled and disgusted me? That is quite complex and not to be elaborated on here. In any case, it is evidence of lack of universality of that gospel in its power to attract, its power to deceive.
The West as represented by America is now nihilistic. It seeks perpetual expansion but in the long run that brings in outsiders to its culture and eventually to its own lands. It moves and mixes races and peoples to the point where the mixing becomes the norm that goes on eventually to the point of no return. It seeks much, inadvertent and complicit, to destroy itself and everyone else along with it. The West has unleashed a force it cannot control unto itself that may well end with its own tragic destruction. With reference to the words of Duke of Qin, civilization is fragile and its continuation requires constant shepherding. Especially in the modern world so small and interconnected dangerous in a way never before for racial and cultural survival.