一个代表性C++代码例子

C++我好久没碰了,不过因为要面试,不得不复习一下。我个人没那么聪明,C++高超的语言啊,跟Java不一样,好久不碰叫我不查资料在纸上写涉及到他的高层功能的程序或许还真有点够呛,不像我的一个才华出众的朋友,是StackOverflow的C++ top writer,能把C++的非trivial的功能细节讲得滚瓜烂熟,其包括C++ 11里的移动语义,那些我出于好奇以前也自己学过。相反呢,Java是个相对傻逼的语言,几乎涉及不到任何非算法的核心计算机科学观念,所以算法之外感觉也没啥好考的,我也很容易就通过了Java的面试,因为问的都是不涉及到语言细节的很简单的算法题。

C++呢,我觉得一个人如果对编程语言设计和编译器有兴趣,C++的某些高级功能却是好的出发点。比较简单的例子就是他的内存分配是需要手动的,而且与C底层不一样的是,他不是一个简单的free,他的类还都有解构函数,为了在任意该类对象生命期结束时释放为了存他的属性释放的内存及做一些其他与对象解构相关的操作,如记录。这种有一定技术含量的高级功能有一大堆,如指向,拷贝构建函数,移动构建函数,运算符重载,赋值运算符,虚拟函数,模板,等等。

虽然这些语言工程非常丰富并有一定难度,C++语言我也看到不少负面的评论,主要是用它开发的速度太慢,难读维持成本高,这种运行速度能优化到极限并富有这种高级功能的语言的用武之地实在太少,一些需要运行速度优化的函数库用它还好,但是一般情况下真是没有什么意义,真正遇到运行速度瓶颈(现在这种情况是愈来愈少了),把程序的少数关键逻辑以C++写就可以了,而且与C相比,那些高级功能的帮助也并不一定太大。所以那些高超的功能或许看着很牛逼,但是对程序员所提供的或许远远低于程序更加复杂所产生的开发和维持成本。

更详细解释C++的弊端可以看看那个人给我发的https://yosefk.com/c++fqa/defective.html。对于中国学计算机的人的C++狂,他只觉得很受误导。怎么说呢,自己把他看成一种intellectual masturbation吧,我的上所提到的那位人C++百科全书的朋友却有一次对我说他想过写一个C++的编译器玩一玩,只不过要花10年的全职时间。

好吧,我们下面就少扯C++语言了,先看看它的我从CSDN找到的一块代码,分析一下。

#include
#include
 
using namespace std;
 
class CMyString
{
public:
	CMyString(const char* pData = nullptr);
	CMyString(const CMyString& str);
	~CMyString(void);
 
	CMyString& operator = (const CMyString& str);
 
	void Print();
 
private:
	char* m_pData;
};
 
CMyString::CMyString(const  char *pData)
{
	if (pData == nullptr)
	{
		m_pData = new char[1];
		m_pData[0] = '\0';
	}
	else
	{
		int length = strlen(pData);
		m_pData = new char[length + 1];
		strcpy_s(m_pData,length+1, pData);
	}
}
 
CMyString::CMyString(const CMyString &str)
{
	int length = strlen(str.m_pData);
	m_pData = new char[length + 1];
	strcpy_s(m_pData,length+1, str.m_pData);
}
 
CMyString::~CMyString()
{
	delete[] m_pData;
}
 
CMyString& CMyString::operator = (const CMyString& str)
{
	if (&str != this)
	{
		CMyString strTemp(str);
		char* pTemp = strTemp.m_pData;
		strTemp.m_pData = m_pData;
		m_pData = pTemp;
	}
 
	return *this;
}

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作者:Alatebloomer
来源:CSDN
原文:https://blog.csdn.net/alatebloomer/article/details/80308482
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构建函数很简单,没啥好说的,与此对偶的解构函数也一样。

拷贝构建函数也就是在堆内存里分配足够多内存并复制至之参数里的串(以字符指针表示)。

最tricky的是赋值运算符。第一,因为这是赋值,左值已被构建,则有赋值自直该不了了之的“边界情况”,而为此,我们简单用一个if条件。在它里面,由于串长度不是固定的,所以不能直接复制。反而,我们要在堆内存新建一个字符指针,复制右值串字符,然后把左值的字符指针属性赋值为它。同时,我们需要垃圾回收旧指针,为此,我们利用C++对象离开作用域时解构函数被调用。由于在CMyString对象构建在if里,离开if时它的解构函数被调用,那我们就把老的指针交换到那儿。我个人发觉到还可以做一点小简化,那就是

char* pTemp = strTemp.m_pData;
strTemp.m_pData = m_pData;
m_pData = pTemp;

改为

swap(m_pData, strTemp.m_pData);

使该代码之作用变得即更明确又更简化。

其实,刚才这些也都挺弱智的,没啥难的,但是还是得小心一点。加上,C++的句法也复杂一点,尤其在涉及到这些面对对象功能的情况下,所以我说面试还是准备一下最好吗。

好,今天应该就到此结束,若我有时间又足够感兴趣,或许我会对一对关于C++ 11新加的移动语义,包括什么shared_ptr,的中文资料复习一下并自己写一写,在巩固自己的C++知识的同时,又能学到一些新的有意思的中文计算机术语,也提高我自己几乎没有经过任何正式训练的中文写作能力。


	

My first on-site software interview in China

Last night, speaking with my headhunter, I was pleasantly surprised to hear that in China, the tech hiring process is usually just one 2 hour on-site. If you pass, you’re hired after that. Maybe in a big company if they really like talking with you, they’ll continue to talk with you overtime and it might last 4 hours. This is in stark contrast to what I’ve experienced in America. They almost always have at least one phone screen that lasts 45-60 min. Sometimes, there are two. Sometimes, there is a code test too. The worst on-site I’ve had is the LinkedIn one that started at 10 am and ended at 5 pm with a one hour lunch interview where you are still judged and evaluated. There are basically no breaks in between. It’s exhausting and quite a waste of time for both sides in my opinion (there’s, I guess, the aspect of testing stamina and social polish as an artificial method of selection, but really, wouldn’t the time be better spent into doing actual work or resting). I personally think that an excess of time and energy spent on selection and social proof via rather artificial channels is quite detrimental not only for productivity but for the overall culture. I must say that the Chinese internet industry is smart not to do the same bloated hiring process of code test plus phone interview plus full day on-site interview, they were smarter than I actually expected, as I was quite surprised to learn this.

To explain this, that headhunter said that the Chinese tech companies value efficiency. I thought of this more as “trust.” More like, they trust that you’re not a bozo and by default, they trust that you are competent and well-intentioned and they don’t go out of their way to screen that you are through a long and rather flawed process. When I mentioned this, he said, yes, and more specifically, that Northern Chinese tend to be high in mutual trust and also very direct in communication with each other. This conforms to what this AG guy on Disqus has written Steve Hsu’s blog from what I remember. I am of Northern Chinese descent too by the way. That guy said that as Northerners with limited contact with Southern Chinese we might not really realize this.

As for this first (in China) on-site software interview, it was with a financial technology company with already over 10 million users. It was for a backend Java developer position. The interview with basically three rounds (of like 40 minutes each) of talk about resume/experience plus some algorithmic coding questions. Those algorithm questions were super trivial (at least for me). They were about the level of difficulty of the questions asked by big internet/software companies in America. Honestly, they are questions that a smart high schooler who did those algorithmic programming contests could easily answer. But we all know that real software engineering has little to do with that, the challenge is more with the design and scale of codebase and ambiguity and business/products requirements. I asked one of the interviewers how many machines there are for their MySQL data, and he said only 4, which sounds about right. As for scalability, in most cases it is not really a problem in this industry. A single Apache/Nginx instance can handle 10,000 concurrent connections and usually over 1000 requests per second. See, though they have over 10 million registered accounts, in practice, for this type of internet service, the average user is actively making requests only for a very small fraction of time (certainly less than 1% and usually under 0.1% to be fair). In other words, requests per user over time are very sparsely distributed. So just a few instances of the same web service would be sufficient.

Afterwards I talked with this software engineer about the tech industry in America, in particular the long interviews, the high turnover, and the short average job tenure. We both think that this is rather inefficient and bad for morale. Long interviews means the ratio of time spent both interviewing for jobs and interviewing candidates to actually doing meaningful work is much higher. High turnover and short average job tenure means not only more of the already long interviews but also much more time spent on acquainting with and setting up development environments and tools and frameworks and learning/reviewing new material as opposed to actually doing meaningful work. That guy claims that in American corporate culture, the default is high mutual distrust, with interviews being a method of probing candidates and pressuring them to reveal embarrassing information about themselves or lose their social polish out of exhaustion. I do feel perhaps such negative views of his on American culture are rather extreme and perhaps somewhat unwarranted, but maybe a detailed writeup by him of all that he’s said to me on those matters would convince me otherwise.

著名朗诵艺术家殷之光朗诵毛主席的水调歌头·重上井冈山

我之前从未听说过殷之光,直到最近在四川绵阳某一个活动的音乐朗诵会才得知这人,也与他合照了一下。他现在已经84岁高龄了,但还在朗诵表演,这次是特意把他从北京飞到绵阳的。他的朗诵给了我一种强大力量的感觉,充分把那首诗的气魄表达了出来。这种专业配音乐的现场朗诵我还真没有看过,对我还算很新鲜的东西,加上那首诗我在看的时候也一点不熟悉。

水调歌头·重上井冈山
毛泽东
久有凌云志,
重上井冈山。
千里来寻故地,
旧貌变新颜。
到处莺歌燕舞,
更有潺潺流水,
高路入云端。
过了黄洋界,
险处不须看。
风雷动,
旌旗奋,
是人寰。
三十八年过去,
弹指一挥间。
可上九天揽月,
可下五洋捉鳖,
谈笑凯歌还。
世上无难事,
只要肯登攀。

我把他的朗诵表演也摄像了,在这儿分享一下。

For those of you who do not read Chinese, here is an English translation of the poem.

I have long aspired to reach for the clouds
And I again ascend Chingkangshan.
Coming from afar to view our old haunt, I find new scenes replacing the old.
Everywhere orioles sing, swallows dart,
Streams babble
And the road mounts skyward.
Once Huangyangchieh is passed
No other perilous place calls for a glance.
Wind and thunder are stirring,
Flags and banners are flying
Wherever men live.
Thirty-eight years are fled
With a mere snap of the fingers.
We can clasp the moon in the Ninth Heaven
And seize turtles deep down in the Five Seas:
We’ll return amid triumphant song and laughter.
Nothing is hard in this world
If you dare to scale the heights.

which I pulled directly from https://www.marxists.org/reference/archive/mao/selected-works/poems/poems35.htm.

As far as this type of political poetry is concerned, I had actually translated strictly literally a Chinese poem on the historical place of the USSR from an answer on Zhihu to Russian, and after advertising it just a bit, there are Russians translating it into much better Russian and even literary English which I have not bothered to seriously read. I thought some Russians might find this interesting too, having in mind a Russian guy I know around my age who also came to the US at a young age, who also finds various aspects of America utterly ridiculous. That can well illustrated by the following anecdote.

So I had some sweatshirt that was basically a big “United States of America” and the Flag on it that was not bought by me that I basically never wore outside for my own sanity. But once when that friend of mine was leaving, I wore it outside to troll him. He completely cracked up, and subsequently, I took off the sweatshirt and threw it at him, and ensued a bit of “hot potato” with that sweatshirt.

Readers of this blog might have realized by now that I have a rather “unusual” sense of humor. Partly, as written in my last blog post, I find much of American politics a mass play of feigned (or not) stupidity, and I can’t help but to make fun of this idiocy a bit on this very blog for my own entertainment, and also for the inspiration of many closeted who feel the same but have not yet “come out.”

Finally, a brief search on Yandex was not able to find for me a Russian translation of that poem; maybe some Russian can find that for me, and then I can add that here too.

不知为何,突然想起测度论里的不可测度的维塔利集合

复制以我写的知乎文章

我在知乎上写的目前竟是一些有关于美国华人和ABC和犹太人的政治话题,自己快成了民族活动家了,其实对于学理工科的人而言,民族活动家比较贬义。民族活动家似的言论与活动,尤其在美国,其实是自然被有能力的人所藐视的,这原则很简单,它根本就是不“专业”的表现,甚至可以说是一种流氓耍诬赖的作为。在美国,中国人政治上都是特别老实的,从来不闹事儿,不抗议,就服从性的低调的埋头苦干。相反,我看到过一位根本不黑但有黑人血统的数学研究生,他的数学水平其实很差的,与其他人相比,可是他却公开的支持Black Lives Matter,然后学校媒体却非常支持他,以他宣传自己的diversity,公布的视频里还有他说I didn’t have to think about race。有意思的是他根本不黑,要他不说,其实都看不出来他是黑人。所预料,这些在学校没人敢说的,说了都怕给自己惹麻烦,其实好多人都为此感到不满,但不得不不了了之,最终政治赢者是谁就毫无疑问了。

我为什么开始写这些东西具体愿意也很难说,一个根本是我天性特别讨厌装傻扯淡的表现,而美国的政治在我眼中就是个大装傻戏(当然,未避免是好多人真的那么傻,或者自己太聪明了哈哈)。反正美国人关于中国和中国人的看法好多实在太傻,在那儿的中国人大多也懒得去“纠正“,大多也是不了了之,我也是,则好多负面的又不太符合客观事实的刻板印象逐渐形成。好多这些我也在我博客用英文写了,美国人爱看他们可以看,知识让一部人知道,并留个记录,也给中国人一点启发。

好,说起数学,我想稍微写写关于我对某非常具有纯数学性质又非常基础重要及美妙的一个观念和例子,那就是不可测度集合的体会。我记得曾经把他的英文维基百科页发给某北大物理毕业的人看了,他的反应就是这种鬼东西只有脱离现实的数学家才会在乎。其实测度这个观念大家是有的,即使不喜欢数学的人,长度宽度这些都是对人很直觉的。形式化一些,我们以实数集合模拟,一个实数集合的子集的度量,勒贝格度量(Lebesgue measure)定义为

\mu^*(E) = \inf\{\displaystyle\sum_{k=1}^{\infty} I_k : (I_k)_{n \in \mathbb{N}} \text{as open intervals}, \displaystyle\bigcup_{k=1}^{\infty} I_k \supset E\}

这个其实是勒贝格外测度,是否可勒贝格测度有条件,那就是所有实数子集A 符合

\displaystyle \mu ^{*}(A)=\mu ^{*}(A\cap E)+\mu ^{*}(A\cap E^{c})

若可勒贝格测度,度值为上的外测度值。

好,我们去找一个非可勒贝格测度的集合。为此,我们将引用三个观察。

  • 测度平移守恒,那就是 \mu(S) = \mu(x+S), \forall x \in \mathbb{R}
  • \{A_k\}_{k \in \mathbb{N}} 互相不交则 \mu(\bigcup_{k=1}^{\infty} A_k) = \sum_{k=1}^{\infty} \mu(A_k)
  • S \subset T\mu(S) \leq \mu(T)

这些直觉上显而易见,形式化证也不难。

以前两点,我们发觉任何可以表示为可数无限多个平移同等的不交集的测度比为 0\infty ,因为所有不交集测度一样所以总测度必然是无限个零或无限个有限数。
那,若我们找到那样的一个集合,并且通过第三点,把他的测度加以有限上限及下限,则得以矛盾,则无可测度。

我们先取商加法群 \mathbb{R} / \mathbb{Q} ,并以选择公理在其所有同价类选在 [0,1] 范围内的一个元素构建一个集合,称之 V 。我们在以每一个 \mathbb{Q} \cap [-1,1] 的元素将 V 平移,这些平移互相不交叉,其并集又包含 [0,1] (也就是我们选择不大不小 [-1,1] ),但 [-1,2] 之内,所以以第三点,他的测度又在 13 之间。所以他若可测度就矛盾了。

我第一次看到这个好像是大三看到的,是自己在英文维基百科页看到的,当时,想这个脑子都有点晕了,还是太不数学成熟,使劲想了但还为此感到迷惑,这个构建的要素脑子里还未看透。可是,后来数学有了大的进步,今年初,我又在没有查任何资料的情况下十分钟左右就从新想了起来,接着把它板上解释给了一位芝加哥大学经济系毕业的人,可是这次,那个人却难以理解。

前天晚上,又想起这个了,感到它非常奇妙,尽然在数学的脱离于物质世界的抽象化及形式化存在这样度不可测的集合。当然,有一点是他依赖有一定哲学争议的选择公理,这我现在也没资格谈。这次根本没有想就能够清晰在脑子里看到这个构建,自然就回顾到了与其恰恰相反的无法理解之的曾经,觉得那时候自己脑子还处于一种半沉睡的状态。这也是数学一种奇妙之处吧。有的定理无论如何证出来不得不有点复杂繁琐,但也有一些定理或观念虽然简单但是从数学思想上却是天才般的,革命性的,之所以那么久才能被人发现到,之所以当初理解困难而经过正确深思后却一目了然永不忘。

纯数学我觉得还是最需要智力的学科,主要是他那种抽象度啊,是很少一部分人脑子先天条件足以接受的,像这种东西他跟计算机科学那些算法就很不一样了,算法还是相对具体的,离我们日常生活不太远,我当初接触有一定难度的算法题没问题,但是某些抽象的数学观念总是吃不透,让我感到自己就是不够聪明,天分有限,可以后来,突然就数学觉醒了。这些客观可严谨证明的抽象数学真理终于在我脑海里实现了,而之前虽然一直存在,对我当时还有问题的头脑却是不存在的。主要还是这些定理的构建与证明都有一些简单的抽象数学观念为基础,这些却很难抓住,在没有掌握的时候,你再费脑也无用,但一旦看透了就觉得其实很简单。所以我很佩服数学天才,他们的结果更多是靠一种天才般的智力和想象力,而非仅仅刻苦,他们能够看到一个远远更高的境界,而这不是什么毛泽东思想或耶稣这种人为的信仰世界,而是一种绝对的科学真理。

微信转发给我的文章“美国是天堂吗?一个资产过亿中国人移民美国6年后的自白!“

是一位中国理论物理学家转发给我的,他在美国也做过交流。读了此文,我基本完全认同他的说法,尤其是美国意识形态教育可怕的那一点。

原链接:https://mp.weixin.qq.com/s/8BUWdQYJ1sSsc2wf0TjLLg

下面将此复制,图片和广告就不包括了。

I’ll further comment that having been in it from first grade through university the American school environment seems very effective at culturally cleansing those of Chinese descent as was done to that person’s kid despite his having done up to sixth grade in China. It is indeed 非常可怕, and again I did what I could resist the cleansing.

Seeing his shock on how just 2 or 3 years of brainwash in America managed to override a preceding 12 years of it in China, evidence of futility of Chinese education, I have a few thoughts on the matter. One, his kid is somewhat on the extreme end there; of course it didn’t help that he was put in schools full of rich white kids. Two, this has become a problem in China too, an invasion of toxic American liberal ideology. Banning Google and Facebook, and now also Reddit and Quora, is not enough. On how to solve this, I have a proposal, a rather unrealistic one at this point in time: change the de facto foreign language in China from English to Russian, China already had experience with that in the 50s and time has showed that Russian culture is more compatible with Chinese culture than the Anglo one. If China is going to secede from the world by walling off Jewish controlled Anglo media, it should do so full force, not half-heartedly.

美国是天堂吗?一个资产过亿中国人移民美国6年后的自白!

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2018年5月,一亲戚想办投资移民,火急火燎地找了一所美国律师事务所。同时,希望找熟悉的人问问投资移民应该注意什么,多久能拿到美国绿卡,什么样的美国律所可靠,会不会被骗,风险多大等。正好一位好朋友6年前办过美国的投资移民,所以找到他咨询。

他1960年底生人,上世纪80年代末上海一名校毕业后进入银行系统,90年代末开始自己创业,移居纽约前,他在山东工作生活,主要做投资,积攒了不少财富。据他自己讲,移民那会,他手头现金上亿。

我们一聊近2个小时。在了解情况后,他坚决反对计划移民者(女,国内名校毕业后到美国读完硕士,父母均为四五线城市的相对高收入者)移民,认为美国远非想象的那么美好,“不要把孩子往火坑里推”。

他说,在中国,6万—10万元人民币的家庭收入,生活要比美国中产阶级幸福的多,向上流动的概率也高得多,普通中国人移民美国,将遭遇难以想象的文化、生活、工作等方面的隔阂和难题,移民三四代后可能会好一些,但那时,后辈与你移民的初衷已大相径庭,Ta不再属于你、你的家庭、家族和中国。

以下是与对方对话的大致情况,为方便阅读,保留第一人称,小题为整理者所加。

01

传言中的美国与

真实生活的美国相差迥异

没来美国前,我和大多数中国公共知识分子一样,对国内很多方面持批评态度,对美国则崇拜的不得了,觉得那是人类目前最自由最美好的生活,有最合理的社会制度,实际上,美国也确是我自己的梦想之一,对于80年代的大学生,美国诱惑太大,工作后多次到美国出差,更是觉得那是一个伟大的国度。

这些年看美国电影和美剧也多,其中展示的普通美国人多住在别墅洋房里,进一步强化了美国无限美好的印象。但在美国待了近7年后,我才知道,我们原来看的都是表面,当你真正在美国生活、深入了解美国后,发现我们那会教科书提及的西方资本主义的腐朽堕落,全都是真的。

我是在孩子小学毕业后办的移民,此后主要时间和精力都和孩子在美国生活。

接触了美国各个阶层,对美国社会有进一步了解后,我发现,在美国的多数华人打拼后过上中产阶级的生活并不难,毕竟移民到美国的,多是国内的知识和财富精英,但美国中产的生活并不像想象的那么好。

美国中产收入按可比价格计算,差不多如同我所在的山东家庭年收入6万至8万元人民币这个水平。一个年薪10万美元的中产算收入高的,在扣除联邦税、州税、FICA等杂项后,到手的不会超过7万美元,合每月6000美元左右,除去交401k等各类保险、社保,到手能用的也就2000—3000美元。

这个收入决定了他们的孩子基本上享受不到太好的教育,因为美国最好的学校多是私立教育,一个月上万美金很正常,普通中产家庭几乎不可能承受。教育等方面的投入差距决定了他们一般固定在相应的阶层。

我生活在山东二线城市,年收入5万—10万元的家庭很多,按现有的购买力,这个收入保障孩子上好点的学校多数是没有问题的,而且大部分上升渠道也是打开的。美国貌似什么都是开放的,但你根本够不着。

他这个制度设计的一个优势就是,你够不着还让你把责任都归咎于自己,从而保持着整个社会的相对稳定。当然,它的美元体系让美国人能享受到全世界的廉价资源和产品,使得即便是普通中产,衣食住行等基本生活保障也都是不错的。

但另一方面,美国的穷人比例比中国更高,贫民窟很多,处境比中国更难,政府救济其实少的可怜。

和美国相比,中国现在的穷人算幸福的,听老家人说现在农村贫困户经常有各级政府去关心,还提供就业机会,这确实是中国特色,在西方国家这是不可思议的,资本的贪婪和冷酷也不允许它这么做,当然,不包括慈善。

在美国,大约0.5%左右的顶级精英,像比尔盖茨、库克、扎格伯克等;5%—10%的普通精英,70%左右的中产阶层,其他都属于生活较艰难人群。

02

要想进入美国主流

精英群体非常非常难

很多进入美国的中国人认为,只要自己努力,一定能在美国混出个模样来。其实,在美国成功的华人极为有限,即便三四代移民后,相对于大量移居美国的高素质华人,能进到美国精英阶层的少之又少,他们中99%都成了美国芸芸众生中的一员,美国的阶层固化非常严重,你几乎没有能力冲破。

而且,无论你如何优秀,你会发现美国白人社会很难接受黄种的亚裔,尤其是华裔,很多优秀的中国人甚至在印度裔的管理和欺压下。

按财富计,我应该属于美国顶级阶层的那个人群,我的的房子在美国最富有的几个顶级精英旁边,我英语也还不错,在美国六年多,我进了不少圈子,认识了很多精英人群,但我能深深地感受到他们和你的那种距离感,你融入不进去,这与你努力与否无关,他们根本不接受你作为一个中国人的努力。

03

移民二代会很快以自己是一个美国人自豪,并试图抹去自己身上的移民痕迹。但假以时日,他发现并不能融入美国白人主流社会,进而产生巨大的挫败感。

我有自己的经济基础,就希望孩子在美国有最好的教育,他也享受到了美国顶级精英所受的教育。同时,我们也兼顾国内的全才式培养。

6年下来,花在孩子身上的钱近2000万元人民币,孩子很快因为自己是一个美国人自豪,因成绩出众且爱好广泛,包括美国精英社交中涉足的一些体育项目,孩子也在一对一顶级教练的教授下出类拔萃,这给他带来了自信。

但到十一、十二年级(即中国的高二高三),他发现自己很孤单,因为原来非常好的那些白人同学或朋友开始疏远他,而他又渴望融入。

与此同时,孩子又带给我无尽的痛苦,我们的矛盾冲突越来越大,让我深感无力。

我小孩在山东读完小学六年级来的美国,应该说,基本价值观已经成型了,但在美国待了两三年后,他全盘接受了美国文化,竟然开始看不起自己的父母,认为我们骨子里有反人类普世价值的根子,这让我异常吃惊,也异常沮丧。

我们一些思想也许与美国基督教和商业文化有冲突,但不应该被自己的孩子视为异教徒,我们奉行中国最正统的价值理念,仁义礼智信、温良恭俭让一直都是我们对孩子的要求,也是我们恪守的信条和做人底线,怎么就成了反人类了?!中国倡导的核心价值我认为与西方的所谓普世价值并没有本质冲突。

自此,我感受到美国文化和美国社会远不是媒体宣扬的那样,它骨子里视自己为现代文明的灯塔,对异域文明具有极端的排他性和狭隘性。同时,感受到美国意识形态教育的可怕。

我们在家都普及中国文化,讲中文,但孩子在美国待了两三年后却否认自己的祖国,认为自己国家的历史充斥着谎言,背离了真实,这让我觉得尤其不可思议。都说我们的意识形态教育多严,“洗脑”教育如何厉害,可我们洗了孩子12年的脑,却经不起美国三两年的历史观教育,可见我们的教育要不是无效的,要不就是形同虚设。

孩子现在基本把中国的一切都丢掉了,并引以为耻,也许等他更年长一些会唤醒中国文化基因,但目前看,他全盘接受了美国价值观和美国光荣史。

美国短短200多年的历史,弄得好像全球文明史都是他的一样。我原来以为我的孩子极端,过分迷恋美国文化,是个案,后来接触不少华裔,发现具有一定的普遍性,国内要深刻反思并检讨我们的史观教育。

从我的经历看,孩子是在高二下学期开始经常抱怨同学对他的歧视。他上的是贵族精英学校,参加的各类课外班级也都是顶级俱乐部孩子,所以代表了美国精英阶层对他的排斥,尽管他的学习举止非常好,但无济于事,他无法得到需要的认同。

此前在初中和这些同学关系都非常好,逐渐成人后孩子们组建起自己的圈子。要知道,在异国他乡没有圈子,没有认同感,对一个人的心理冲击会非常大,小孩之后又把这些情绪发泄到我们头上。

我小孩已经拿到美国几所顶级名校的录取通知了,但我已经意识到他不会被美国精英社会接受。我现在想的是,如果我在国内花同样的钱,用同样的精力,孩子的优秀应该不会亚于他今天取得的成绩,但已经无可挽回。

我决定今年春节后回山东生活,一些人认为我年岁大了想落叶归根,其实不是,我是看到了美国社会的病态,它完全不是我从中国公知、媒体和各类社交媒体中获知的美国。

中国有污染的空气,但中国有更多美国没有的机会和相对宽容的环境,美国所谓的上流社会,你几乎是挤不进去的。但不在美国亲身生活,你不会有这种感受。

中国人死要面子,在美国的很多苦痛是不说的,这让人觉得美国很光鲜,加上回国带点美国的coach、levis等品牌包和衣服等回去,让大家觉得国内几千的东西在美国竟然如此便宜,美国简直就是天堂,其实根本不是。

我认识一对夫妇:男的清华本硕毕业后到美国师从诺贝尔奖得主,现博士毕业在纽约一高校,科研经费很少,生活拮据。他爱人是自己的高中同学,在北大本硕博后F2签证到美国,至今在美近10年,期间因为生了2个小孩,成为全职太太。

这对夫妻的原生家庭在国内有些关系,前些年家人让回去,他们认为应该混个样子出来再回,这两年想回,却因年近40岁顾虑重重,感觉优势不明显了,也担心国内人际关系复杂,就这么耗着。

我去过他们居住的地方,还属于美国的底层,孩子每月还需要政府给点救济,他们的目标应该就是进入中产行列。

他们夫妇俩很努力,但下一代的未来其实已经注定,因为他们的未来是看得见的,其经济境况决定了他们的孩子不可能接受美国的精英教育,这就意味着下一代已经输了,但他们享受着来自中国老家的虚荣,老家都以他们在美国为傲,而他们回国展示的都是在美国光彩的部分,其实这和他们的真实生活反差很大。

如果在国内,清华北大毕业的他们如此努力上进,会比在美国好的多,成就可能也会大得多,从这个意义上,我们培养的大量优秀人才被美国这个巨大的社会绞肉机吞噬了,非常可惜,我们应该有机制来盘活这批人才。

现在大家都在说中国各种不好,又把美国描绘的天堂似的,其实现实不是这样。美国的阶层固化非常严重,相对而言,国内的机会和上升渠道要畅通的多,尽管我们有很多问题,有很多不满,但与美国相比,我们依然有不少好的地方,也有可能是因为出过国的更爱国吧,我现在的观念有了很大变化。

04

接受了美国文化和价值后,觉得做个普通公民就很好,那这个移民意义就不大了,对华人是个精神和思想上的挑战,更是无尽的苦痛。

儒家文化鼓励进取,有通过自己努力做人上人的基因,从来不认命,希望一代比一代强,而在美国华裔移民又很难成为“人上人”,所以会很痛苦。

美国文化觉得当个清洁工也挺好,都是社会不可或缺的,但中国人会认为,我要在国内付出这么多,一定能出人投地。美国的天花板你顶不破,亚裔能出头的非常少,你会不甘心,尤其是第一、第二代移民,不甘心“泯与众人”,中国人的基因很难接受这样的结果。

如果你想过一般人的生活,那你可以去,但我们骨子里希望成人上人,这是黄种人的基因密码。此外,我认为美国中产阶级过得并不轻松,但因为他信奉上帝,内心平静,能坦然接受并享受其中,我们要做到不容易。

Reflections on the airplane in China

I’m on the airplane in China right now with nothing to do so I write this. The person next to me is watching an American movie with Chinese subtitles. Having been in China for almost a month, seeing that screen feels foreign to me, there are mostly some white people and a few black ones too. On that I shall say that my mental state has much changed being surrounded by people like myself for no more than 30 days. In America my only access to the culture and environment of what is to be my natural habitat was indirectly and very imperfectly through Chinese in America as well as the Chinese Internet. But that is nothing like actually being in China surrounded by Chinese people and their way of life in cities built in their own style. After just this little bit of time, much has changed as for my mental defaults, perhaps most prominently that now a pretty woman is instinctively East Asian as opposed to white. The power of advertising, the power of propaganda. I had been exposed to propaganda all my life in America nonstop and now I’m China I experience one in the reverse direction, with crudely speaking a cancellation effect underway.

Almost instinctively I no longer care or fear anything near as much what whites think. This is actually natural for almost everyone in China. They have no direct contact with white people or with people of any other race really. White people are pretty much invisible in their lives excepting an occasional model advertisement in public and appearance on some world news on TV. This is in stark contrast to in America where communication is so stilted in comparison because there are a zillion races which the multicultural environment naturally conditions one to fear pissing off either intentionally or by accident. One reason why I’m not optimistic about America. Sure America can attract smart people from all over the world. But there is also that given how people of one race already have enough difficulty getting along, how much of a problem it becomes when there are many races of vastly different cultures and inherently competing interests sharing the same space. Maybe that is much a reason why now China’s airports render the ones in America shabby in comparison. Even in a second tier city the magnificence of the airport instantly made an impression on me. Of course America is still more advanced and of higher innovative substance in core science and technology but even there the advantage is dwindling.

I increasingly view my experience growing up in America as an ethnic Chinese as an abnormal one essentially forced upon me. It’s human biological nature for races to self segregate, this is instinctive and it’s really modernity that has made possible people like me. Biologically and culturally, whites and East Asian are far far apart. It’s nothing like the difference between Han Chinese and the Mongols or that between the English and French. And so it’s also natural that the Chinese in America are perpetual foreigners who die out in a few generations with high outmarriage and low birth rates. It’s like a pollutant entering water that eventually becomes absorbed in, no longer visible to the naked eye. Of course there has been a continuous stream of it entering to replenish but mostly uniformly there is quite a low half-life.

I am the rare type of pollutant who opts to leave that system for self preservation. Yet owing to my having entered and stayed in formative years I continue to with my fluent and still prolific English writing infect readers and minds within. I am in some sense a product of American liberalism. It was the invasion of toxic American liberal ideas into my native land in the 80s and 90s along with some slots opened for entrance into the land of its gospel that attracted people like my mother and many other Chinese of that generation. Most of their offspring were absorbed and tamed under the new system, yet I resisted and am now in some sense retreating and launching some sort of counterattack. What was it of this gospel that so repelled and disgusted me? That is quite complex and not to be elaborated on here. In any case, it is evidence of lack of universality of that gospel in its power to attract, its power to deceive.

The West as represented by America is now nihilistic. It seeks perpetual expansion but in the long run that brings in outsiders to its culture and eventually to its own lands. It moves and mixes races and peoples to the point where the mixing becomes the norm that goes on eventually to the point of no return. It seeks much, inadvertent and complicit, to destroy itself and everyone else along with it. The West has unleashed a force it cannot control unto itself that may well end with its own tragic destruction. With reference to the words of Duke of Qin, civilization is fragile and its continuation requires constant shepherding. Especially in the modern world so small and interconnected dangerous in a way never before for racial and cultural survival.

Jewish hegemony and its threat to China

Jews are an ethnicity that takes care of their own to the detriment of others. Jews have, through nepotism and in-group preference, maneuvered themselves into positions of power in US politics, finance and technology. Jews see Chinese as a natural competitor they wish to wipe off the face of the planet. Their preferred method for doing so is to brainwash white America to go to war against China. Also, they create Hollywood propaganda to brainwash Chinese and other Asian women to see whites and Jews as racially superior partners over Chinese men, taking advantage of feminist tendencies and hypergamous tendencies in Chinese and other Asian women.

The reason why the Jews use miscegenation against Chinese is because they know deep down this is their weakness. Jews do not have numbers on their side. If Chinese men figure out a way to woo a significant number of Jewish women and have children with them, it will destroy the purity of the Jewish gene pool. The Jewish gene pool is their weakness — to counter the Jew, China must try to pollute it with Chinese men Jewish women mixes. It’s a patriarchal world. The objective is to spread your seed in other race’s women to strengthen your race. Jews are doing exactly that. We have to counter it — eye for an eye tooth for a tooth. If pure population is “hit points” like a video game, Jews are powerful but they don’t have many HP. Chinese have way more HP. We need to target their women. Put our seeds in their women. Give birth to Chinese male Jew female hapas. That will completely wreck the purity of their tiny race. Once Jews are incapacitated by targeting their women for miscegenation, Jews will be incapable of manipulating white Americans to attack China. It will be like removing a sorcery spell on white America — white America will wake up suddenly and realize they have been manipulated all along. Then they will extend a hand of friendship to China in gratitude for removing the spell that the Jew cast on them.

中国本地人如何看待美国长大的华人

ArmorUSA老是跟我说我在中国由于我在美国长大会受到一些歧视和排斥,比我想象的会严重得多。但是,他个人还是有经历的,在北京工作过。有人知乎上私信给我,表示对我的支持,我就向ArmorUSA说

我可以跟他说你觉得ABC在中国很不受欢迎吗,即使是会中文的,爱国的,【某美国最顶尖大学】有高等学位的。

他的回应却是

The last point is irrelevant. What matters is 会中文 and 爱国的.

我心想,哇,真的,中国人把红竟然看得那么重啊,比专还重的那么多啊。

ChinaSuperpower倒觉得我在中国不会被排斥,由于我还有中国身份证,加上父亲一直在中国,并且来自比较红的家庭背景。

这种不管你在美国多么有资历,多么名校背景,若是黄皮肤华裔而中文不好或不爱国,中国人不把你当回事儿这一点,其实我也有过,尽管自己当时还没真正想到回国发展。比如,大学毕业后认识了一位普林斯顿毕业的四岁去美国的人,本来以为他专业能力会多么不得了,但却大大失望。加上这个人的中文极差并还觉得自己中文已经足够好了,对世界和政治的思维方式也是完全美国化的,一下子我就觉得这个人是个tm的sb。

同段时间,有一次我又和一位我小时候通过父母朋友认识的一个当时在读医学院的人网上聊天。记得小时候觉得他牛的不得了,被哈弗,耶鲁,斯坦福大学录取了,又是SAT满分,那些中国父母都觉得他棒的不得了。当然,后来我也SAT接近满分,数学和编程竞赛也得过奖,也工作挣钱了,就没有把他那么当神看了。我们谈起了某五岁从乌克兰来到美国的人,我说这个人还知道好多中国历史人物,比如吴三桂,钱学森等,让我感到相当的impressed。那个人却说了中国历史他只知道近代的。然后,我就说了个那钱学森你应该知道。他说不。我就简单的介绍了钱学森是什么人及他的人生和贡献,然后说了个什么像钱学森邓稼先都是中国核武器和导弹最重要的并且在中国公众名气比较他的科学家,应该知道。他还为此感到很惹恼,在那平台上禁了我几周。我怎么觉得呢,一开始感到有点失望,是不是自己与人交往能力有点问题了。同时,我也觉得他这个人虽然事业上好,但是比较缺乏政治判断能力。美国学医的人在很多人眼中都是一些不太聪明不太独立思考但能死拼命的人,为了进美国医学院付出很大的代价,包括大学和医学院昂贵学费的贷款债,好将来做医生相当高的工资慢慢换回来,之后在自己晚年享受高的工资并且稳定工作。有的人进不了医学院或者医学院读了却发现自己做不下去,此经济压力甚大,每年都有医学院学生自杀。我个人从来没有对当医生有过兴趣,同时,我也觉得扛着那么多债为了将来不完全保证的更好的未来不是一个明智的选择,就像一些中国父母在美国为了自己的孩子能上学费高的好学校,还把自己的房子卖掉,这在我眼中也是很愚蠢的做法。同样也是那些为了能进好的大学故意显得不那么Asian,据我观察他们或许能进哈弗耶鲁等,但是之后他们的结果一般并不好。

所以看来我自己虽然在美国长大也一直骨子里从某种角度把香蕉化的华裔非人化,跟中国的中国人做得也差不多。我骨子里还跟那些主动移民美国的人是不一样的,不过还是由于母亲的决定小时候去了美国。ChinaSuperpower说我这样的人即使没有香蕉化也不会太被同情,这我能理解,这就像一个人主动跳进了蛇坑后受害了才认识到蛇危险,逃避了还指望正常的觉醒的人同情他,在这种情况下一般人的反应会是活该。当然,ChinaSuperpower说第二代身不由己去的好多其实是无辜的,可惜的是,某程度依父母什么样,包括父母的人生决定,评价一个人属于人的本性,若自己与父母道不同,那就得积极的证明此不同才能得以别人的认可。

结识ArmorUSA和ChinaSuperpower

他们俩都是七岁去的美国或加拿大但名校高等学位谋取后回到了祖国,他们也都认为中国人在美国面临着集中营的未来。他们俩我也都是在Reddit得知,在知乎上读过我的文章的人可以看到我的文章好多以他们的Reddit评论为启发点。我一个月前在Reddit上写给了他们俩私信,几天前得以ChinaSuperpower的回复。微信连通后,他立即把我加到了一些以我们这类人的组成的微信群,在此及微信私下聊天已经说了不少了,尤其是与ChinaSuperpower。 

有些关注我的博客或知乎的人应该得知我对犹太人比较反感。我已发觉好多红的中国人都是这样的,包括ChinaSuperpower。他又说现在在美国掌握着媒体的大多征服了白人的犹太人在操纵着白人歧视亚洲人,这也很符合我的观察。我在我博客上也写到过我的在数学竞赛获得过最高奖的白人朋友也觉得犹太人是可恶的寄生虫,而且他们因为在美国的种族分类属于白人,可以把所谓的white privilege推到白人身上。在美国舆论中,任何对犹太人负面的话在那种多年被犹太人操纵的政治气候会被批为anti-Semitism,而且经常,犹太利益集团会为此破坏其言者的事业。从某种角度,中国人还好,因为中国人只要有中国身份还可以回到中国,在中国主流是不会在乎反犹的,甚至可以说共产党本质上就是反犹的。中美敌对,美国由犹太人主导寄生,犹太人自然是中国人的敌人。犹太人掌握的媒体如谷歌和脸书好多都在中国的黑名单上。我在脸书面试过,那儿有好多大陆人,但是都是干活的或中层管理的,上层大部分是犹太人。中国人不要怕犹太人,犹太人其实没有那么聪明,中国人在美国完全客观公平的考试和数学竞赛等今年基本在秒杀犹太人,在科学研究上,中国人也不错,总的来讲还是差一些,但是因为现在在还未形成世界绝对一流的独立的科研体制,在美国还是经常依赖于他人的钱和评价,中国人将来也会达到日本那样的绝对一流的水平。同时,中国人14亿,拥有庞大的而接近于最先进独立工业体系和军队,犹太人如果太得罪中国人,他们十多亿的穆斯林仇人不得不加以实力远远更强大的中国人,若不妥协,犹太大屠杀必定重演!

我和ChinaSuperpower说了一些自己的背景。小时候把我带到美国我母亲的一些表示自由主义观点之语录我跟他说了,他的感觉是我母亲不仅是精神美国人,而是不一般的,严重的精神美国人,为什么呢,因为原来她是原体制内的人,在中国主流体制混的算很不错的。他非常佩服我一直留在中国的父亲,觉得他是非常有智慧的人,我却跟他说了我爸爸在我中学时候对我说的,大概为

中国人跑到美国去,人家自然就会觉得你是跑到他们那儿享受更好的物质条件,是在那儿乘凉的,你在好,人家也不会真正瞧得起你的,所以我从来没想过去美国。

他又说,现在的局势已很危险了,中国人必须选一边,中美矛盾只会加深,在过一段时间很可能就来不及了。当然,好多第一代移民已经失去了回国的可能,因为好多他们的作为,尤其已经入美国籍的那些,已经使得他们在中国人眼中为叛徒。 

他认为犹太人是美国的华人的集体敌人,但是个人敌人对于那些生在或小时候去的美国的经常是他们的叛国父母,中国人不光要集体冲击美国的犹太精英当权派,个人也要去彻底否定及惩罚背叛国家的父母。

这句话或许有点极端,但是从此我还看出了一定的引申义。那就是中国人最大的敌人其实是内奸。他也在Reddit写到过90年代和00年代初,中国的政治气候处于了低谷,右派内奸漫天遍野,并且占领了不少有权利有影响力的位置,那时候西方国际化公司即使在中国比中国公司威望都要高。对中华民族幸运的是,习近平上台时,其形势已基本转变,中国的左派已大多占领上风,而且其相对势力一直在增强,按趋势会彻底压倒卖国的中国自由主义右派。这一点我在美国也感觉到了,2017年是个大的转折点,觉得那时候中国已经大多证明自己了,被嘲笑为超美国的科技公司在美国媒体里也得以认可,连美国的时代杂志都发表了一个标题为China won(中国赢了)的文章。我自己个人也有了不少进步,在事业上,在能力上,给了我远远更强的信心。我感到中国人之前实力还是太低,不得不服从美国的一些,但是现在不这么认为了,开始认为其实中国人或许更强,只不过近代史起点太低了,若世界体系能由中国人主导,中国人的天分和能力能得以远远更充分的发挥,也会将世界变得更好。今年受到一些网民如Unz Review的Duke of Qin的影响,我认为中国人应当发愤图强将美国的自由主义国际体系彻底毁灭,保卫中国人,也保卫全世界得多元化。中国的优势在于大家都是中国人,都讲中文,有同样的文化,有极强的组织和执行能力,只要政治上团结一心,力量是超大而无可比拟的。中国改革开放融入国际体系以来,一直有外势力利用中国自由主义分子搞渗透,如听说微博都有以色列支持一些中国人发亲以亲犹的言论。犹太人千年活在别人的国家,对他民族做商业,政治,及文化渗透和操纵和寄生成了他们的本性,他们认识到他们在多种族自由主义社会有极大的优势,反而那种世界非常不利于千年活在只有中国人的中国的中国人。

中国人在二十一世纪,要像在当年的朝鲜战争一样,积极选择并形成最自己更有利的战场,那就是慢慢通过自己的势力改变美国为主的国际体系和规则,将自己的劣势转为自己的优势。要想做到这一点,显得清除内奸,最好的办法是施加压力迫使他们离开,就像ChinaSuperpower所说,我反对中国的“公知精英”,但是他们一旦离开了中国,就跟我们没关系了。分界线现在已经画的很明确了。美国的华人一旦主动放弃了中国籍或长期在国外与反华的机构形成利益关系,就不在是中国人了,在国外他们的任何遭遇责任完全由自己担当。同时,ChinaSuperpower同情第二代身不由己在美国长大的华裔,因为他们好多是好的,觉得中国应该给他们提供融入的机会,至少给他们机会证明自己与他们的叛徒父母很不一样。不过他也认识到那些第二加代美国华人他们大多也没希望了,要回来就赶紧回来并且做一切自己所能做的证明自己对中国的忠诚,这包括公开否定自己的叛国父母。

这个世界差异大的种族和文化是没有本质上的妥协或融合,人必须选完全依靠一边,不然得不到支持而难以生存,现在我们处于危险的历史时刻,面临着你死我活的斗争!

Native Chinese vs Chinese-Americans

I’m in China right now and will be there for a while. I’ve already noticed that the Chinese there are very different from the ones in America in their appearance, mannerisms, and the way they talk. Superficially, they are easily perceived as far less “civilized” but my previous blog post asserts that that is actually more of a positive thing. After all, history is full of “civilized” people being ethnically cleansed. In that regard, native Chinese are doing fine, whereas Chinese in America are not.

Actually, the roughness, rudeness, loudness, and aggressiveness of the native Chinese makes them appear much more masculine, in contrast to the stereotypical emasculated Chinese male in America. This is not just the working class in China. Plenty of STEM college educated men in China are like that too. They may not be any physically bigger than the Chinese in America but they appear much bigger and more intimidating. Crudely speaking, the coarser tone and manner of speech in combination with the darker and rougher complexion contributes much to that impression. Most of the Mandarin Chinese I’ve heard from the Chinese in America has been more “proper,” whereas there are plenty of Chinese in Chinese, even smart and educated ones, who speak with a heavy regional accent.

The environment both indoors and outdoors is overall much rougher and dirtier. There is a near ubiquitous lack of external polish but everything is functional, and people are quite accustomed to that environment. That might explain why Chinese in America are easy to bully whereas the Chinese in China can actually stand on their own. Yes, there are plenty of Westerners who bitch about the environment, manners, and system in China, but the people there for the most part could not give a flying fuck. Most even the college educated ones are very limited in their English and they are, unlike the Chinese in America, not white worshipping at all. Their focus is purely on what goes in China and whatever from abroad is purely for their appropriation and enjoyment, not out of any desire to associate with outsiders. As for their less civilized behavior, they seem to have little awareness of it. Even when pointed out, they will not really feel embarrassed. They feel like they are doing fine, and that does seem to be the case. On that, I’ll say that the TV and commercials are of high artistic quality, and yesterday I saw on some channel a segment about how China is now building the biggest, longest, and highest bridges in the world. Moreover, I’m happy to be ever more connected and active on the Chinese internet, which is also quite rich in content and activity the Great Firewall not withstanding. I only expect to go much further in that direction over the next year.

There are plenty of Chinese doing business in China, starting all kinds of stuff. Unlike in America, they deal with almost exclusive people of their own, in their own language, in their own culture. They don’t give a fuck and don’t have to give a fuck about what white people think, with the exception of the business that involves direct contact with the West, which is quite a small percentage of the total really.

As a concrete example, I just had dinner with a few such people. They both had no more than a high school education but were successful enough in what they were doing to drive a BMW. I can only imagine that most of those educated, refined Chinese in the West would view them with disdain. I asked one of them what they thought of Chinese in America. He said they tend to be more polite and more cognizant of their appearance, unlike someone like me. They have 文人气势, the spirit of a literary person. But, according to this words,

An ethnic group must also have 血性, “blood spirit,” otherwise that ethnic group will die out.

He went on about Genghis Khan’s warriors on horses managed to conquer even Russia because they had so much 血性.

Expectedly, I responded that just a few days ago, I wrote an essay about how history is full of examples of civilized people getting conquered by barbaric ones, and that the likes of what he just said was exactly what I was referring to. Following on that, I spoke of how Chinese in America are almost utterly devoid of 血性, and they are indeed dying out, by his logic.

Somebody else spoke of how those white worshipping Chinese in America try so hard to become more white, more Western, which only exudes in them a feeling of inferiority, whereas those uncivilized people in China who don’t give a fuck are actually much more respectable.

Ultimately, that guy concluded that the ideal ethnic group is one that is a mixture of cultured-ness and 血性.

That guy expressed an admiration for Pan Jianwei, that Chinese physicist celebrated for work on quantum satellite and communication, noting how that guy is the same age as he is, and also a zillion times more impressive in both ability and contribution. This was after I pointed out that a guy like him, despite his lack of a real high school education (he studied accounting in a vocational school or something like that), has probably made much more positive economic impact than most of those cultured, educated people. I responded that of course, a real top scientist like Pan Jianwei is different, but there are plenty of “educated” people even PhDs losers who have done much less than he has. I told him that people like him represent 血性, and that the Chinese race is where it is today much out of its having innumerable people like him. Very modestly, he said that he’s actually quite low in 血性.

Not surprisingly, that guy also brought up Mao Zedong, with an emphasis on how unlike Genghis, Tang Taizong, and all those other great Chinese leaders/emperors in his poem Snow he actually proved China to the entire world, through the Korean War.

This land so rich in beauty
Has made countless heroes bow in homage.
But alas! Chin Shih-huang and Han Wu-ti
Were lacking in literary grace,
And Tang Tai-tsung and Sung Tai-tsu
Had little poetry in their souls;
And Genghis Khan,
Proud Son of Heaven for a day,
Knew only shooting eagles, bow outstretched
All are past and gone!
For truly great men
Look to this age alone

So this, written in 1936 but published only in late 1945 I believe, was quite prescient. I just love how he had enough ego to write that, in such a subtle way, and history proved him right. I do believe that history’s verdict will indeed place him far above the rest.

Overseas Chinese are so stuck in their white worshipping mindset. Many of them have nothing but disdain or even hate for Mao. But it is a guy like Mao that gives China the 血性 necessary to truly rise on the world stage. His detractors, many of them deracinated Westernized intellectuals, love to criticize him for persecution of intellectuals. I think that’s bullshit, especially if you look at what beautiful and everlasting poetry he wrote of such literary and historical substance, from which it’s clear that he was higher than most of those traditional Chinese intellectuals. I’m confident that he had great respect for those intellectuals highly trained and accomplished in modern science and engineering, and I am also for the most part in agreement with his disdain for the type of arrogant status-climbing liberal intellectual with the closed-minded neglect and contempt of all those poor, lowly, and “uneducated” people with 血性, with the the ability and willingness to actually do dirty work under very harsh conditions. As I’ve mentioned before, Mao managed to win because he was able to combined cultured-ness with 血性. His military victories were done mostly with 血性, not with cultured-ness or superior technology. Even with much worse technology, the Chinese under his leadership, fighting their own way full of 血性, could triumph against the most advanced country in the world with nuclear weapons and airplanes. Of course, later on, Mao had those with culture, with advanced degrees in science from the West and from the Soviet Union, or trained purely in their home country willingly developing advanced technology for him. And even as that he happened, he kept emphasizing the importance 工农兵 (workers, farmers, soldiers), the people who keep alive the 血性 necessary for survival. I believe he saw well the great danger of influence from the cosmopolitan intellectual. With too many people like that, you end up like the Chiang Kai-shek and the KMT, utterly ineffectual as an organization. Those types might be the ones who beg or climb their way to power. They are never the ones who actually fight their way to power. There is a league of difference between the two. Mao is so respected and feared precisely because he led the Chinese communists militarily on their way to power, to international recognition.

By the way, I’ve tried to tell this to some misguided Chinese-American activists. By doing so, I’m hinting to them that what they’re doing really is begging their white rulers for more representation. Not gonna work. Makes you look like a pathetic weakling. Even if you get the more representation that you want, you’re still being used as a tool. Like Nikki Haley the white looking female Sikh as double minority figurehead for America and Israel’s imperial interests in the UN. Or all those Chinese females married to white men promoted by Anglo-Zion institutions and media to divide the Asian-American community along gender lines. The reality is that those people bring “diversity” while at the same term reinforcing white supremacy, a double win for the American elite that has realized by now to exploit social justice as the new opiate of the masses.

Expectedly, those people were not receptive at all, which only contributed more to my desire to get the fuck out of America, permanently. In China, the relative of lack of civility initially gave me a somewhat dismal impression but I am very quickly adjusting. It’s mostly a matter of mindset. Meeting and talking with those people today gives me much optimism for China. China has gotten as powerful as it is today not only from the minority of highly smart, educated people in STEM doing the science heavy design for big bridges, Tencent, quantum satellites, and the likes, but also from hordes of superficially uncultured but productive and instinctively “woke” people doing the menial and business labor and projecting a roughness and meanness to ensure the survival and proliferation of Han race and the Chinese nation.

In conclusion, quoting Duke of Qin from Unz Review,

Nice guys finish last. Chinese shouldn’t become “nicer”, they need to get meaner. Atavism is the word of the day and they need to embrace “meanness” to survive in an ever darker world. I’ve seen the behavior of the so-called “nice” Chinese; deracinated compradors with fertility rates below 1 whose primary desire is overpriced real estate and cargo culting the West and miscegenating themselves into oblivion. In other words, an evolutionary dead end. Ill take Henan peasant over Shanghai cosmopolitan any day of the week and twice on Sundays. One of the good things about the Communist Party is that they have universalized Chinese nationalism to no longer be the exclusive realm of educated elites. Next step is to foster a siege mentality of us against the world and project that “meanness” against outsiders. Race War Now.